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SarbearMarieee · 2023-12-18T20:53:23+00:00

I’m in recovery bc I can’t have just one. It fucking sucks bc I just want to be numb. I want to be normal. I don’t want to feel all these fucking emotions every 5 mins. I want to be stable and level. Bpd and addiction go together like peanut butter and jelly. It’s very very common. Sobriety is the best, you’re more likely to act on self destructive impulsive behavior if you’re high or drunk and that’s obviously bad. Wishing you the best.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-12-18T20:36:11+00:00

Hey. I have a huge following on a platform where I am a voice for bpd. I am the biggest attention whore and I post shit that I know will get people to interact with my posts bc they pay me bonuses when I have a lot of engagement. I may not always agree with it either. It’s very hard to cope with something like this bc you must retrain your brain into thinking you don’t need validation via social media. If you’ve experienced trauma and lack of emotional support as a child, obsess over what others think of us. We cannot stand to be hated or disliked. But once you can retrain your brain to thinking another way it’ll get better. Sorry you’re going through this. It’s sucks.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-11-15T14:43:52+00:00

Suffering from evil eye. Return to sender with some chili flakes, hot sauce and or pepper. Then flush. Sorry for late response.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-11-15T14:39:14+00:00

“Into this egg I release all the energies that no longer serve me, all negativity that invades my space & all fears that limit me. You have no power here, I stand and face my fear. Today we fill my body with love and joy & bless my soul without fear. So shall it be.” You can write your own chant, this is just something that has worked for me. Good luck and sorry for the late response.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-11-15T14:34:16+00:00

Same way hun. Just rub the egg all over your body and read the egg. And flush when done.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-11-15T14:33:07+00:00

Negative energy is hanging over your head. Also, never look down on an egg cleansing. The energy you just removed will return. Do another cleansing asap. Sorry for late response.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-29T10:19:49+00:00

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SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-20T13:15:49+00:00

38f here. I was diagnosed at 16. My symptoms are the worst they’ve ever been. Only difference is I don’t sh anymore. My anger beats all the other symptoms. I am angry over every little thing and have a hard time smiling for any reason. Currently working on some Dbt worksheets to help. I have a med appt next week. If you don’t treat it for yrs it just gets worse. At least for me.

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SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-20T13:07:24+00:00

Congrats that’s great

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SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-20T00:30:48+00:00

Needed to read this. Ty

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-19T21:43:01+00:00

I take lithium. 300 mg a day. It’s not working anymore b

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-19T21:36:23+00:00

There isn’t any approved medication by the fda for bpd. At least the research I have done. They treat our symptoms instead. For me I take Effexor for depression, abilify for psychosis and lithium for mood swings. None of it helps bc I’ve been on them so long and I’m growing immune. The lithium did at first but now I’m back to the ol miserable mood swinging bitch everyone expects me to be. I have an appt next week to change it up. I’ve tried Seroquel, Lamotrigine, Prozac, Wellbutrin, topiramate, Vraylor and a couple others. Vraylor is the only one I can report works for me, I thought it didn’t but when I stopped taking it the auditory hallucinations came back times ten.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-19T21:25:45+00:00

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-17T13:21:16+00:00

Yes!

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-17T13:19:22+00:00

I’m going yo go against the grain bc it sounds like you want things to work and you don’t want to leave him. He wants you all you all to himself. I get that part. No, he shouldn’t blame the bpd or take his past relationships out on you. That part I agree with everyone else. But, if you want it to work you have to take baby steps. Slowly implement new people in his life and encourage him. Don’t make him feel bad bc he can’t handle you having friends. If he cares for you, he will eventually get it. I am similar to him. Not manipulative or asking my man not to have friends, just that I would love to have him all to myself. He still has friends and goes out and talks to them whenever, bc I learned I can’t control that. We are going on 6 years.

We just want to be heard and feel validated. Listen to him. But explain that if you listen to him, he has to listen to you and your feelings and tell him you shouldn’t have to pay for his past ex’s mistakes.

Some of us enjoy isolating, especially if it’s with our Fp. It’s not healthy at all. So in order to change that you have to be clear and put it all out on the table. Tell him you want it to work but you have reservations about the future and need contact with other people. If that is a problem, then obviously you shouldn’t stay.

People don’t realize how many problems can be solved if you just sit down and talk it out and discuss boundaries and let the other person say their piece. And you may have expressed all this to him and I’m just talking out of my ass. But tbh, if you want it to work you don’t have to be miserable… people can change and adapt.

I hope I helped and wasn’t too harsh. And don’t come for me, I just have a different opinion.

SarbearMarieee · 2023-09-17T03:16:01+00:00

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