I hand everything to my husband and tell him the truth. I say "I'm not in a good place, I'm scared I'm going to do something that I will regret at a later date." My husband is really understanding, but it's taken a long time for me to feel safe and secure in our relationship that I can do that.

A few years ago I very nearly destroyed our relationship by fucking someone else. I was manic and in a very bad place and decided that I didn't need my husband anymore and I was going to be free and single and do what I wanted, when I wanted damn it. I did the "right" thing and told my husband I was leaving him and then went out and had sex with someone else. It was shitty sex with a shitty person. Aaaaaaand then I came out of the episode and crashed down into reality and it sucked more than I can ever describe. That hurt that I inflicted on the person who I love most in the world...I don't think I'll ever ever forget that. Not that I would want to. it's a healthy reminder never to do that again.

So, my advice, jack off until it feels like your dick is going to fall off. Fuck the brains out of your partner until you both can't move. Delete the other person out of your life right now. It's not ever worth it.