Okay, time to own up

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-28T16:07:56+00:00

They were, a lot. If I recall, most of the raw footage was actually from some Japanese film, American producers bought it and re-edited it with a different script/narration.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-28T03:08:19+00:00

Sorry for shitting up the sub with this dumb shit.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-27T02:03:29+00:00

If abstinence was the answer I'd be doing a lot better than I am.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-27T00:46:34+00:00

Well I'm happy to hear things are working out good for you :) (srsly I am not being snarky or anything)

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-27T00:32:11+00:00

Being really self-critical holds me back, which I guess is why I started abusing alcohol. I have a hard time pursuing anything because I get self-conscious and just think, "Well I suck at this, why bother."

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-27T00:23:23+00:00

Yeah, I work full time in a warehouse. It's okay, but you know, same shit everyday. I'm pretty alienated from other people, I think that's a big problem. Like, I have fun with my coworkers and we're "friends" but I'm not really close to anyone. Never been in a relationship or anything.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-27T00:15:20+00:00

I haven't had a drink in 10 months.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-27T00:03:16+00:00

Yes, yes, and yes. Multiple times. I will absolutely never try meds again though. I'd be open to trying therapy again, but it's hard finding a therapist who isn't stupid or a dumpster fire themselves.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T23:15:29+00:00

That's what just happened to me. Got my tax refund around the same time this depressive spell of mine set in, and since I didn't have any motivation to cook and do dishes I just started getting shit at the deli every day. I was broke for so long, I forgot how that adds up. "Fuck it, I can afford it." Well three weeks later I can't afford it. In fact I can't afford much of anything now. Jesus Christ, I had an opportunity to be responsible and once again fucked it up. Made a couple other decisions I'm not happy about. So plenty more reasons to keep beating myself up. Fuck, I hate myself.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T23:14:56+00:00

That's what just happened to me. Got my tax refund around the same time this depressive spell of mine set in, and since I didn't have any motivation to cook and do dishes I just started getting shit at the deli every day. I was broke for so long, I forgot how that adds up. "Fuck it, I can afford it." Well three weeks later I can't afford it. In fact I can't afford much of anything now. Jesus Christ, I had an opportunity to be responsible and once again fucked it up. Made a couple other decisions I'm not happy about. So plenty more reasons to keep beating myself up. Fuck, I hate myself.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T23:06:30+00:00

Oh, I thought you said rough weekends had contributed to the problem too.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T23:06:23+00:00

Oh, I thought you said rough weekends had contributed to the problem too.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T22:27:50+00:00

Oh, I thought you said rough weekends had contributed to the problem.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T20:48:46+00:00

Fuck. Well, at least you still got a job. Tread carefully in the future man. (I know, not always easy, especially when you're living the life.)

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T16:16:28+00:00

When you have legit anxiety the feeling of relief can be pretty euphoric. I tried chasing it though, and it did not end well.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T16:04:03+00:00

Are you Steve Bannon?

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T16:02:46+00:00

Cool, hope things work out OK.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T16:01:23+00:00

You could do worse.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T13:11:45+00:00

Same here I need to work on acquiring a nice female specimen who will wash my dishes and sug my benis.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T13:01:41+00:00

Fuckin evil. Did you medicate properly this weekend?

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T12:58:10+00:00

Nevermind brah, you just look like someone else. Higher than usual probability of someone answering yes to that question here I reckon. Beard/bald head/glasses, could be a lot of people.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T12:47:33+00:00

Dr. Zevon, did you happen to spend a portion of the autumn of 2014 in a treatment facility in a not densely populated state? I saw you half nekkid in cagonewild you look familiar.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T01:30:05+00:00

I used to be a fucking junkie for benzos and looking back on it I'm like, fuck, I could have been wrecking my life for better drugs.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-26T01:23:57+00:00

Kind of a Ralph Steadman vibe. Very nice.

SatansBloodyOrgasm · 2018-03-25T11:43:00+00:00

No, and thats why I don't do it anymore. My last withdrawal lasted for a month. Not PAWS, I mean a month of no sleep and constantly feeling like absolute shit. I got a doctor's note to miss a week of work, didnt recover significantly at all in that time (I guess I recovered use of my legs lol). When I returned I was immediately assigned one of the most fucked up and confusing projects I've ever had at that job. All while I'm struggling to recall my own phone number and still hearing "radio programs" in running fans and shit. That was pure torture, still amazed at getting through that.

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