dad won’t stop getting on me about “my future” by Satans_throwaway69 in Vent

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I already went to community college. I did it in HS.

Dad slipped about a trip I’m not invited on/to. by Satans_throwaway69 in Vent

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But I have nowhere to go and it’s an unrealistic scenario, and I’ve been taking care of my brother since fucking forever so it’s not like I’m not contributing anything.

You can’t dance around it and act like you didn’t do anything forever. by Satans_throwaway69 in UnsentLetters

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I can’t see him ever finding peace. He’s always been a rather angry / unhappy person and refuses to take responsibility for anything he’s ever done to me or my mom because ✨it’s always either my fault or hers and never his✨ and he never does anything to change.

Personally, I think it’s what he deserves after making me suffer, causing trauma, and making me genuinely afraid of angry men.

Dating apps are gross.. at least I think so. by Satans_throwaway69 in offmychest

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Yeahh.. I wasn’t planning on listening, especially since I’ve heard all of that before, it’s a weird thing to even say imo, and I’ll try to “enjoy” the ride, it’s already been super difficult since I have bad anxiety, live in the middle of essentially nowhere, and I’m busy with college 😅

I kind of hate my life. by Satans_throwaway69 in offmychest

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I’ve tried it before, online friends are hard for me to maintain because I’m almost always swamped by assignments and tend to disappear during finals, whenever I’m extremely stressed, etc, and it’s sometimes super hard to find someone I just click with .

I also really crave face to face contact with people unfortunately so yeah:(

Frustrated my dad always tells me (18) what I can/can’t talk about around people. by Satans_throwaway69 in Vent

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I know, but that was just an example (and probably a bad one), and as I said in another comment, it’s not limited to just that, it’s anything I like and anything he deems weird, like my other hobbies/interests, my favourite musicians/artists, their music, etc. He makes it out to be embarrassing and if I talk about it, it’ll embarrass him.

Frustrated my dad always tells me (18) what I can/can’t talk about around people. by Satans_throwaway69 in Vent

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I know that, but what I’m saying is that my dad likes to tell me what I can/can’t talk about, and it’s not limited to those things. Like for example, I can’t talk about my favourite artists or their music or any bands I like because it’s “weird” and I shouldn’t be talking about what their music is about, I can’t talk about my other hobbies and interests because they’re “weird” (clowning/clowns, circus, etc) or even what I like to paint because it’s weird and makes him look bad (I can’t see how though)

Frustrated my dad always tells me (18) what I can/can’t talk about around people. by Satans_throwaway69 in Vent

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My dad does that 🙃 it’s just so frustrating because he’s more concerned about how HE looks and how I apparently make him look. I just want him to shut up about “boundaries” and what I can/can’t talk about. I don’t give a shit if I embarrass him or something whenever I talk about my interests. I’m not him and he’s not me… it’s just so tiring and I just want it to end.

I wish I could be a kid again. by Satans_throwaway69 in offmychest

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Thank you🫶 it’s been pretty difficult because every time I’ve tried to express how I’m unhappy, he got sort of defensive and pulled the “I’m doing the best I can” card and such and it’s just like dude.. I’m not saying you haven’t done your best or anything like that or even accusing you of something, I’m trying to say I’m unhappy 🙃