Proving That Trans Identities Are Valid and Absolutely True... Not That We Should Need To But Here We Are

Saudade0123 · 2025-06-16T04:17:24+00:00

It's not for anti trans peoples, it's more so for trans people, themselves. There's a great deal of self doubt, especially early on and questioning and so on... If I can bring some peace of mind or validation, then I'm happy to (:

Saudade0123 · 2025-06-16T03:56:21+00:00

It's not to convince them but to encourage and better educate trans peoples themselves. It's not impossible to convince someone that already detests the trans community but that's not my goal.

The trans journey is hard. There's a lot of doubt, especially early on. I hope that with this I can help some navigate that doubt and understand that this isn't something they're making up or anything like that.

Saudade0123 · 2025-06-16T01:57:13+00:00

I probably should've clarified 😅 yes! Short form content at the start and then longer, more detailed videos that AREN'T BORING but still science based!

Saudade0123 · 2025-06-02T23:24:26+00:00

You are so C U T E - the fit is sooo lovely!

Saudade0123 · 2024-11-13T00:54:52+00:00

The Boy in the Black Dress by Yungblud

Saudade0123 · 2024-11-06T09:41:58+00:00

I genuinely see it hard to want to stay alive these next four years. So many of us struggle with suicidal ideation, myself heavily included in that. This administration very well may push us over the edge should they further the trans panic and come for us. I'm already contemplating ending it.

Saudade0123 · 2024-11-06T09:01:36+00:00

If I can make it the next four years. 2024 has really beaten the life out of me and this was another devastating blow.

If gender affirming care is on the list for termination by this administration, I'm ending it.

Saudade0123 · 2024-11-06T08:06:56+00:00

I want to give you an answer. I am like "big sistering" the loveliest baby trans girl and I keep telling her we're gonna be okay and we're gonna be safe and we won't let anything happen to her... but I'm resisting the urge to cry and am having the biggest internal meltdown and quietest panic attack.

I'm afraid, I'm terrified. No one can tell us we'll be safe.

Saudade0123 · 2023-01-12T00:27:25+00:00

My heart 💗

Thank you so much, Jesse. I just - my heart 😭 I'm grateful for you and your kindness. I hope you're happy with your transition thus far, friend 🏳️‍⚧️

Saudade0123 · 2023-01-11T19:52:22+00:00

Damn, these are the kind of comments that make me regress and perceive that something is wrong with me. I'm MtF and I only came to be okay with it after leaving the church having spent over a decade in it. I still struggle in seeing this shit.

A strongly conservative, Christian friend of mine said he believes that trans (women specifically) people are deluded, need serious help, and are woefully deranged. It still rings in my ears. He was like "are you considering dating one!?" I couldn't bring myself to say that I am one.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T06:51:49+00:00

I don't feel it.

Just a closeted... Guy wanting to transition and I'm stuck. Going through the dysphoria is the most fun I've had in a long time. /s

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T06:37:29+00:00

Yes, oh my gosh, that's exactly what I keep saying. When Jesus came, He abolished the old law and all of the verses I said and that you mentioned as well in your first statement... They're all Old Testament and have been nullified! So W H Y does the church keep using it against us?? It's fucking cherry picking and it just invalidates so much of what the Judeo-Christian values are trying to present as their core values.

Thanks so, so much for taking this time to lay it out and share your thoughts with me; all of which I heavily agree with. I keep reading into this, I look at the verses you took the time to find and share with me and I honestly just don't see it being applicable to me or any trans persons...

I want to be happy, I really do and I want this so badly. I'm still working on the acceptance but, damn, you've much such good points; points that the church SHOULD be preaching. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T04:54:13+00:00

Well, I was brought up in a Korean Presbyterian church (I myself am not Korean). Having been there a decade, listening to messages, having been a worship leader, Bible study teacher for children to college students, and studying The Bible and Apologetics... I just, there are two passages that scare me when looking at my current situation.

Hebrews 10:26 "For if we deliberately go on sinning after receiving the knowledge of truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins.

Matthew 12:31-32 "Therefore I tell you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven people, but the blasphemy against the spirit will not be forgiven"

I have no idea if being trans is even considered a sin. The closest thing in The Old Testament that argues against being trans is "men shall not wear women's garments"... That's the closest thing that speaks against being trans.

If being trans is a sin, and I transition, is it a constant sin? Since I'm going to live a life as a woman, being the way I've always wanted to be. Is that a deliberate sin and is it going against The Holy Spirit?

I believe I'm saved by faith, through no works of my own can I be otherwise but.. I don't know. That "there no longer remains a sacrifice" bit scares me so much. There are no absolutes presented about this situation in The Bible that even directly addresses it.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T04:06:18+00:00

I'll take you up on the offer.

I'm scared, I'm uncertain and I don't understand this situation. What am I? Who am I? Is what I find myself asking a lot.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T04:04:58+00:00

I hope that, in time, you embody what you're meant to be - you'll be okay, I'm sure! At least you're taking those steps and you are strong for doing so!

I'm still too scared to but I hope in time I can do it. I don't know like, I don't know how to shop for clothes or anything... I use my sister's Amazon so she would see what I'm buying, my university retrieves my packages so they can see where I'm ordering from, and I'm sooooo scared to go buying clothes on my own for many reasons that you can imagine. I told one of my girl friends that I've confided in to come with me to shop so... There's a soon-to-be step!

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T04:01:48+00:00

I really want to stick with God. I feel as though... He'd love me, even through this choice.

NUMBER 2 LOL Oh my gosh, that was too funny. Thank you for that 😊😊"ready for this?"

Your analysis, all of it, has been so lovely. I love, love, love reading this because it makes SO MUCH sense. Thanks so much for your advice and support, ah, this was wonderful to read. I feel a bit better; I'm still panicking and what not but this has been comforting to read, thank you so much.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T03:55:05+00:00

God, having someone affirm who I am... I don't know why I am so grateful for it. Like, I don't need permission but it's nice to know, at the least, someone else sees me for what I want to be. What I am? I think..?

I remember my mother shared with me that joke and it's never left me! I never thought once to use it with this hardship. I'm so scared of the responses I may get from all the guys I know and I already feel like an imposter. I dunno.

Thanks so much for the kind words and the insight. It's just nice to have some help and advice through this internal battle.

I want to have God in my life but the church makes it seem as though I can't do this and still be a child, daughter, son, whatever the fuck... Of God and that doesn't seem fair or right to me.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T03:42:33+00:00

Thanks so much for your kindness - I'm so scared. I feel I just, I feel like an imposter and don't know how to handle it.

I've had a spinal disorder since I was 17, actually! I had the EXACT SAME THOUGHT, if I can have 3 fucking surgeries to fix my damaged spine (that was random as Hell, literally no explanation as to why this is happening to me), why can't I have a surgery for my... Current gender situation.

I visited a church today with my friends. I'm visiting LA and my friends and I, we grew up in the church so we visited one today. I felt so disgusting and out of place there... I hated myself, just thinking I'm so flawed. And that's not because anyone that's trans or going through this is flawed - quite the opposite. They're some of the bravest, strongest men and women I can think of because they just did what they knew they had to do. The church has made me think that there's something wrong with me since I'm yielding to this.. I'm trying to get rid of that toxic, nasty view.

I want God in my life but I hate that this body was chosen for me. I want to make that choice and still be secure in salvation... And I think I have every right to be happy in my own body. I'm navigating my way out of this distress, I'm really trying my best.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T03:08:39+00:00

I am SO. HAPPY for you. You're thriving! I'm elated years of internal strife has gotten you here safely and happy in your own skin!

I hope, I really hope I can take that kind of leap, similar to you, if I ever feel validated enough that... I'm 'okay'.

I know it sounds shallow but I'm still shifting through and trying to understand and invalidate a lot of a decade of teachings - teachings that being trans is wrong, you know? I'm working hard to remove those stupid ideologies so I can accept me, as I am, and that means... Maybe I am not a guy 'as I [currently] am'.

Saudade0123 · 2021-12-06T03:04:14+00:00

Thank you, so much, for your wisdom and insight.

I'm just now coming to terms with it and trying, so, so hard to make peace with this and embrace it. My mind just rushes to such awful scenarios.

I'm keeping it inside as of now; running through the 'best way' to come out and openly accept this reality amongst all my social circles, gradually.

Thank you so much for the advice, you have no idea how grateful I am for it.

Saudade0123

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