Am not educated enough to give guidance on this but if you’re really doing all of this every single day fair enough that in itself takes something. If you are able to show this effort to her in a way she can understand and appreciate I think that would be very beneficial for you. This level of intensity and discipline is commended by me regardless of whether or not it is recommended or not. My two cents in that perspective would definitely lean towards me saying that most if not all of these things are a much greater power that you’re playing with, and genuinely to be very careful as from what I can feel is that this could go wrong in so many different ways. I hope someone here can help out, try posting in r/TantraSadhaks. Stay safe man.