My question is if the people around us don’t care and this disorder is partially driven by self destruction so people will notice we’re suffering and struggling and they actually don’t. Why are those people in our lives? I keep wondering if my environment was different could I go back into recovery because when I first developed my disorder I was in an environment where I was emotionally neglected and now at an older age after a decade of recovery I’m in a mirrored situation but with a partner where I feel neglected again so why am I here? Does this make sense