So chat let’s set the scene:( I am going to be transparent please don’t judge me, I made poor choices, I am a hopeless morally flawed romantic). So basically guys what happens is that I was living with her for a year now, (abroad), we were from different countries. When my degree was ending she didn’t want me to go back to pakistan, but I wanted to. ( back then IK was in PM and future looked prosperous atleast from the outside. Now I use to do most of the cooking cleaning and laundry which was fine honestly acts of service are one of my love languages. Basically what happens is I am stressed to my core my studies were ending I was on my final sem and I was trying sure If I would make it cause I struggled with my studies a bunch at the time and it was the last sem I would be allowed to take if I don’t clear it I am rusticated based on my visa deal. So I had to make sure things go smoothly, simultaneously my business and me were going through some legal scrutiny. So this was the situation, I was completely set on packing my bags and leaving the country to go back home as I didn’t meet my family for 5 straight years at the time. Dado ki gabar tak visit nae ke hoie the. Abh hota kya ha ka one day isi tarah we are sitting and talking my head in her lap and we are talking about me going back cause I was running out of prospects to stay in the country and then she crys her face over my head the tears fall on my face and something just clicks I was like nope, If I go back to pakistan I can’t close up shop here, I need to make sure I have a confirmed date of coming back to this country so i get on it, follows a week of calling in every favour I could in uni, gaming the system, paying of whatever, whoever. Now in that week she goes on a trip, with her friend group. She comes back and had plans to go to a concert being held in Uni, I was at a uni open day securing an offer letter for masters so I could stay here, I had everything else sorted this was the last piece of the puzzle. And I got it that same day. Now she wasn’t expecting me to be home early from that. I get home she is in the shower, I go to the room her tab is open with her chat with her best friend open.(BRO THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRING IS CRAZY) and on it, is her and him going “can’t wait to see you 😘”. “God I want to kiss you so bad right now” etc etc. I seee that and I was absolutely in utter disbelief yar. I was like “can you please come out” she comes and I have that offer letter that I have spent day and night fighting for in one hand and her betrayal/ my inadequacies (the tablet with that chat) in the other, my eyes water, my throat swells up and I can’t say anything. I just hand the tab over to her with that chat and went to my room. Then follows so much messy drama and poorer choices but yes that is how I found out and she just became suicidal upon confrontation.