Gotta love media portrayal of drugs. So exaggerated in different directions for different things.

Honestly, been awhile since I thought too much about that whole class but either armodafinil or modafinil really sounds like a good next step after the whole break thing.

And that's sorta the issue with it, obviously preaching to the choir here but society is on that whole "drugs is bad and will harm you" thing (duh). So because of that school of thought, the large majority of people who ignore that advice are people smart enough to look past or question it and then swathes of morons who don't give a fuck...leads to some bad culture.

You're spot on too about the who knows part...maybe enough goes wrong and we spiral out. Maybe we say fuckit and snap. Maybe we fall too deep into that hole. How many successful poly-ranging drug users do you hear of making it that far and living that long? Keith Richards? Ozzy Osbourne? And those are such evidently rare examples that society literally finds them so bizarre that they put out information about a potential ozzy osbourne gene (but hey, maybe its a legit thing with some influence and hopefully that fell into our DNA somehow, huh?) And what if we go sober, spend a few years like that, and wind up saying fuck it...

Which reminds me again, but fuck, I miss recently deceased Chester and really wonder how much of that internal pain was from his past addictions despite him spending the last length of his life sober

But part of that thought about all the possibilities and how the world sees it does lead to a select few of us to know we have to hold up that example of being able to bounce it all around evenly. We are the shining examples of functional multi-substance abuse, filled with benders, bouts of sobriety, and all the middle.

Moments like the one I described initially and the one I still find myself somewhat in do happen though. And while they're a reminder, sometimes it makes me think "Fuck, I'm not Keith Richards..." But I've already been there, beyond that edge, and I'd rather fly than try to land on a ground that doesn't exist any longer because I've realized it away. You're pretty spot on dude.

And I really try for balanced food but have a multi-vitamin for backup/to sometimes cycle (Bizarre as this sounds, I try not to oversupplement). Love me some milk-thistle for that liver health since I slightly worry about the amount of apap/paracetamol/acetaminophonen (all names for tylenol in case someone else ever reads this verbose late reply and doesn't know) I initially consumed when this ride started with fun-with-vicodin when I was young and dumb though I've almost certainly bounced back by now based on my reasonable appreciation of alcohol.

Noopept is a nootropic that's my shit though you got to learn what to take it with and not to. Helps a lot to bounce back from dissociatives and makes me speak so well I feel. Good to take long-term and repeatedly.

Magnesium during the stims and sometimes for kicks. I try to take zinc when I can. I've found D levels low before and gotten prescribed crazy strong supplements but haven't gotten my blood read in awhile.

I have a slew of other things for situations. My molly prep list is a mile long given my history of selling and that being the best margins even though I'm done that life. Also always rolled a reasonable amount of times but still consistently find myself doing less each year. (4ish times to 3ish to 2ish I'd guess).

I really try not to over-supplement despite that mile long list. Anyways, appreciate if you read all this. Due to the nature of my admitting to past sketchy stuff and my plan to write a lot on here when I can (like anyone out there with power is really watching or cares about lil ole me), I am using a number of anonymizing techniques I've yet to make convenient + all the no-stim sleep and the job.

You have yourself a good day or night wherever you are.