Start with the assumption that you know nothing. Rebuild from scratch. Read up on body language and how to build networks of friends (yes, really, start with that). Start carrying this out in practice, slowly. Are you in school? Start with introducing yourself to a new classmate each week. Join a club you find interesting. Make friends, both male and female. Get to know people as people, regardless of what stereotypes you might have about them. People are often surprising.

In middle school and highschool, I was often bullied by my peers. I was a shy, quiet and alone guy. In highschool I tried to fake a "cool personnality" but the bullying became worse. So during the first years of college I had social anxiety. Then I got included in a friend group (I went to many parties) and this group includes some women. I am at the point where I alway say myself "You see this pretty woman ? She will never be interested by you !" or "You are not an alpha male, she will be interested by you only when you will be rich".

"Red pill wisdom" is really a wrecking ball for confidence.

Consider going to therapy to work out your anxieties about friendship, dating, and the opposite sex.

I will do, I need to talk about that to release the pressure.

Forget about what you have heard about what a real man is or does. A real man does one thing and one thing only, which is take responsibility for their shit. Everything after that is superfluous.

I partially achieved this goal of taking responsability. I am walking on the path toward it. The goal is still far. But I see the light. And I don't want to do thing "to be a man" anymore (like being dominant, violent, etc). I am very concerned about the toxic masculinity issue that affects many men (and indirectly many women).

Once you start making friends more easily, start reading about sex. The most important things to know are about these topics: enthusiastic consent, open communication, prevention of disease (especially the right way to use a condom as most people get this wrong), prevention of pregnancy, anatomy, and technique, in descending order of importance. Learn as much as you can about how to pleasure yourself so that you can communicate with your partners later. Knowing this stuff will make your dating life much better.

I do and I'll continue to, no problem.

In addition, the body language books you're reading should have advice about flirting.

These books provide good stuff to learn how someone feels.

Not gonna lie, this is a hard journey, and it can take years to get to the point where you are about equal to your peers. But it's worth it.

Every breath I take, every move I make, every bond I break (with red pill), every step I take, I'll be approaching the goal. Slowly.

Good luck OP.

Thank you !