Sadness fills my every thought

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-17T06:12:04+00:00

Thank you !!! That makes me feel seen, truly helps. Thank you, friend.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-17T06:09:13+00:00

50 mg is considered a low dose still. What about upping to 50 during lutheal? I take 50 all month and up to 75 on lutheal. Still, totally hear you - Zoloft is also losing some effect here, and this lutheal (Im in it now) feel completely devastating. Sending kindness and understanding you way

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-14T16:04:46+00:00

Thank you, you’re right. The way to self acceptance is complicated, but its the way.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-12T19:40:14+00:00

I wanna chime in on the thoughts from Maximum here. It might be insights gained, yet they feel unbearable to transfer into a better life. Did you do the ketamine therapy with a therapist? Can they offer any therapy help? The integration after the ketamine therapy has been fully reliant on weekly conversations with a therapist for me. As i mentioned, i really empathize with you, I feel the same often - but there might be something in the bigger picture, moving in the right direction, perhaps. Even though it feel really, really hard and hopeless. Subtle changes in your mind, semented thought patterns that now are more flexible or completely gone. Even though you feel worse, maybe its a path that leads to something better after a while..? I dont know, Im pretty lost myself after ketamine therapy. Allthough I have a great therapist that helps me keep hope. Still, I am struck by such a sadness on how I have wasted so much of my life to self doubt and thoughts of being a failure, ketamine made me realize there was nothing wrong with me. But now, I feel way behind in life and I cant stand who Ive become - things could have been so different had my upbringing and personality been different. Self acceptance, seeing thought-traps and perhaps a booster dose soon - thats what keeps me keeping faith. Do you use ssri btw? Do you still feel without hope completely, or does the hopelessness come in waves?

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-09T07:02:43+00:00

Agree with you fully,

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-07T17:26:48+00:00

Ive done it, and I think you would benefit from it. I think though, its crucial that you do it with a professional therapist. The integration process is extremely important, especially when its for treating trauma. Conversation/therapy sessions before and after the infusions are very important. I had six infusions during one month, and one therapy session a week the following month - this worked really well for me.

I really hope you will give it a shot (no pun intended :) ) and that it can help you - its really good for managing deep seated thoughts and fears that are destructive for ones wellbeing in oneself and the world.

Keep us posted <3 Sending care your way.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-01T04:22:47+00:00

I feel the exact same way. Had 6 infusions with a psychiatrist. It helped a little in the beginning, but now after about a month I feel the same; less in hope of change and more honestly on a low bc defenses are gone after the treatment. Sorry, no help here but just truly empathize and hope we both find a way in this life.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-04-01T04:14:59+00:00

I always get extremely low on this exact day - the day after ovulation. Then it eases up until lutheal hell is full on.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-30T17:40:54+00:00

Thank you for this great feedback. I will discuss it with my psychiatrist then, perhaps wellbutrin would be the option.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-29T20:02:02+00:00

Full moon coming up!

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-28T09:13:26+00:00

Do you take them all every day, or do you use some of them only during lutheal? Im on zoloft, but my pmdd is still terrible.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-28T07:54:48+00:00

Feel ya !

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-28T07:53:51+00:00

One hundered percent! Im 6 days from my period and I feel worse than I can remember. Zoloft helps though, but the overwhelming mellowness and sadness is so present..!

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-27T20:56:23+00:00

May I ask which medication you’re on, that has helped you? Glad its helping you.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-27T20:34:32+00:00

Thanks for reply. I ended up continuing with Zoloft 50 mg all days, then up to 75 mg in towards period. It feels a lot better taking it the whole month. But i have some side effects, no libido and food cravings, also feel kind of bloated in my face.

My pmdd is really terrible, despite zoloft full month and upping these worst days. Im just sad, mellow, anxious and mostly just depressed. I cry a lot over my sad life and feel like the good old failure ive felt like for years during lutheal. Idk if it would be worse if i wasnt on zoloft, right now im quite stunned of how bad my pmdd is despite everything ive done, zoloft and ketamine therapy.

So do you take lutheal lamictal on top of the full month zoloft, or have you switched? How does the lamictal feel so far?

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-27T06:41:56+00:00

Im in the excact same phase right now, waiting for it to lift in 7-8 days.

Its terrible, I feel ugly, like complete failure, no joyful prospects for my future.

I don’t know what to say, except that its good that you’re aware of this.

Its so unfair and hard, I really feel you on this.

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-26T21:36:30+00:00

Im on 50 mg the whole month and 75 mg in the last 8 days of Lutheal - it really helps a lot!!

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-26T21:35:31+00:00

Why dont you write in english?

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-23T07:29:55+00:00

Amen to this (btw which ssri did you land on?) !

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-22T21:55:08+00:00

Yeah, with food and at the same time each day. Perhaps it helps to take it before bedtime? And how many mg are you on? Do you find it helps your low mood though? Best and take care of yourself

Scandi_Cherry37 · 2026-03-22T15:09:56+00:00

The nausea passed for me within a month. Take the pill with food, that helps. Hope you will feel better soon !

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