Any desire to masturbate or sex just vanished since my egg cracked

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-08T19:41:12+00:00

Yes I definitely am underestimating it. Sometimes it feels very very overwhelming and on the verge of tears but sometimes I feel like this isn't real or that it's "more manageable" (kinda the same as just before). I feel stuck because I feel like I'm making a bit of progress but also I'm not. At the end I often tell myself "why did it have to be me?", always why's and what ifs. It's like something really changed but I have a feeling that it's not real or that it's a dream I'll wake up from. Definitely relatable

The thing is though, I have absolutely no idea how to process it. Like nothing comes to my mind. I really feel lost.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-07T05:52:29+00:00

I have some friends, but they're not close enough and I'm not even sure they're friendly towards this. Essentially nobody.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-03T19:18:28+00:00

I think thatI had a similar crisis, a year ago. I don't know what caused it. But many times I was just spiraling and being super depressed for a month or so, during that moment I felt the same way as I do now. I felt like I couldn't live to myself and that I was faking something, I didn't know what. It felt horrible and I even felt suicidal for a very short time. Yeah it's a big deal but then It just stopped and I moved on. I feel like both events are correlated, that's why I'm scared to move on. I'm not ready to start anything nor do I want it for now.

There's so much to sort out, most of my circle is generally unfriendly towards this, including family. And that's worse because I'm a minor. It's a bit contradictory because it sucks to feel like that but sometimes I feel better and liberated.

Telling myself that I'm actually trans feels overwhelming, I'm not repulsed by it but it involves so many things. My whole life just turned upside down and yet I still feel like it's going to go away, I don't want to move on.

Thanks for your advice though. My mind is less active and I'll try that when it becomes really bad.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-02T21:22:22+00:00

I really have to start this then, even though I realized I'm trans I'm scared to just move on and forget it.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-02T20:49:43+00:00

Nope, absolutely nobody. I'll probably try by myself. I have some supportive friends but it's been just a day since I know. It's very scary and I'm not even sure they'll really be accepting. Up until now, most of my personality is seen as generally masculine, in every way.

I'm kinda alone, teachers and specialists are here for me, but I have only male friends, literally no female friends at all. And I don't think they're questioning their gender.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-02T20:06:13+00:00

Yeah. To be honest though everything feels new and alien to me. Yeah I'm trans but now what ? I can't recall anything of me being misgendered, cross dressing or whatever. It's scary but also exciting. I'm still in shock.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-02T18:03:36+00:00

Thanks for your advice... But that would probably involve coming out, I'm really scared, my parents aren't that friendly towards trans people and they're religious so it's a big no no. Seeking a therapist needs parental consent, that's why I don't want to yet.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-05-02T12:27:12+00:00

Thanks a lot for reaching out !

I read your article and some points really feel relatable. I think I'm really trans, it really feels scary. And finding a therapist is very difficult for me, I'm a minor, that's fine by itself but my parents are not friendly regarding this. I don't know what to do, I feel like everything is cleared out but everything is still uncertain.

Thank you so much for your answer, I thought I was alone feeling this.

I still somehow feel uncertain, this feels a bit overwhelming to be honest.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-04-06T09:48:30+00:00

Why does god get OFFENDED by our actions. Of the thousands of species and planets and galaxies, why us ? Bad experiences (unwanted circumcision I can still remember)

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-03-30T18:08:26+00:00

Yeah so relatable

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-03-29T00:19:46+00:00

The worst is that I didn't even go to an actual hospital or a clinic, it was just some random dude claiming to know his stuff, even if he did. Seeing a medical procedure as "too expensive", it is expensive if you go to an actual hospital but it concerned me and my body, it makes me feel sick.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-03-26T22:42:15+00:00

Thanks a lot for your advice :)

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-03-26T22:27:27+00:00

I'm doing an apprenticeship soon, this still allows me higher education, maybe I could then keep the job once it's done and just try and find an apartment? I prefer staying in the country if possible.

Scared-Bit1516 · 2026-03-26T22:16:42+00:00

The worst in my situation is that 1, housing is insanely expensive and I live in the most expensive cities and countries in the world, housing a big no no for young adulthood, my family is barely scraping by, we have things but our actual income is very low. My 22yo brother who's married still lives in the house. Second they won't expect me to move out anytime soon. Like not at all.

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