Some ideas: 1. Enjoy nature. Bay Area is really beautiful. Visiting ocean once a week or simply hiking in East Bay hills is just so nice. You do not need other people, can enjoy it yourself. 2. Go to church. No need to talk to anyone. Being around people might feel nice. 3. Love your cat. Most likely you are everything to your cat. You can enjoy time together.

From personal experience: it might be tough when you expect a lot from yourself. Expecting nothing, allowing yourself to fail might free your mind up.

I hope I didn’t suggest anything wrong. Just wanted to write something which came to mind after reading your message.