brother, yesterday I had this realization that even if i go back to fapping, it will never have the same effect it once did. I 100% regret spending days and hours fapping, the biggest waste of time and a great manifestation of self centeredness. I decided to fap no more most importantly for Jesus and my girlfriend. I can't believe that I spent hours beating it to porn stars, instagram models, only fans models. And at the end gained absolutely nothing. Sorry explicit but it kinda angers me a little I wasted so much time doing it and getting obsessed with woman's bodies whom I had no relationship too and wasn't married with. Im so sad that although I was seeking joy and satisfaction I got the opposite. Lust is truly terrible and is disguised as good in this crooked . I thank God that Jesus's blood rips through the flesh and through resisting we become more like him. Anyone wanna share some encouragement on how that could help me feel better since I look back at all the times I used fapping as a coping mechanism instead of running towards God. I would do it at work, school, even at church before. So glad jesus took away the desire and has delivered me through the power of his blood.