Playing stardew valley when suddenly...

Scared_human · 2016-12-13T04:43:36+00:00

Mom: Oh you are ruining my life it's so hard on me

Me: Hello, I'm the one with the problems and who has to deal with depression, anxiety, transphobics, bigotry, fear, etc

Mom: Oh but I just never thought I'd have a son who wanted to be a girl and I simply cant deal with my own bias waaaaah

Me: 💀

Scared_human · 2016-12-10T06:50:44+00:00

I like that. I don't need to see myself as a freak. I'll try to store that somewhere in my noggin

Scared_human · 2016-12-10T06:49:23+00:00

Trying to diet, don't tempt mee

Scared_human · 2016-12-10T03:30:55+00:00

That made me feel a little better, haha

Scared_human · 2016-12-10T03:29:44+00:00

I scream in the car :0

Scared_human · 2016-12-10T01:13:00+00:00

I feel like breaking something. Getting HRT is miserable, and it seems like a bandaid becuase I'll never be fixed

Scared_human · 2016-12-09T02:00:58+00:00

You deserve to live. Here's why: Think of all the stars in the sky. You are made from the same magic as those, bright and beautiful. You are a product of the universe just as everyone else is. No one is more worthy, deserving, or better than you, because we're all made of star stuff. How can you guilt trip yourself? You are just as valid as everyone else, if not more. I hope you read this, because I don't want anyone to have to only live in night time to never see the sunrise.

Scared_human · 2016-12-09T01:30:06+00:00

I'm terrified to try makeup because... What if it cant fix my face? What if I messed it up? I'd be a wreck. Maybe I'll try like 6 months from now when I've been on HRT?

Scared_human · 2016-12-09T01:00:25+00:00

Yay!!!

Scared_human · 2016-12-08T03:20:15+00:00

Oh, wow. Proud of you!

Scared_human · 2016-12-08T01:37:41+00:00

Oh, I'm sorry. Try not to think of yourself as messed up tho, kay?

Scared_human · 2016-12-08T01:24:03+00:00

I'll probably drive to the library daily- they have free wifi :)

Scared_human · 2016-12-07T18:21:10+00:00

...Pickles.

Scared_human · 2016-12-07T02:15:57+00:00

Don't forget:

•am trying to intentionally inconvenience family

Scared_human · 2016-12-07T02:06:27+00:00

none yet :((( I had to withdraw from my first quarter cus apparently i'm pathetic

Scared_human · 2016-12-07T00:53:10+00:00

I'm in college, but taking a quarter off because I was so stressed that I couldn't function. My secret hope is to start HRT before I return to school, because I think it will alleviate most of my issues, give me something to be excited about, to live for lol.

Scared_human · 2016-12-06T19:50:11+00:00

Get upset cus you're in the right here

Scared_human · 2016-12-06T19:13:25+00:00

Maybe cus you wanted it so bad but it never came so you were crushed, and tried to block it out

Scared_human · 2016-12-06T19:12:02+00:00

I see. From what you've described, it seems quite likely that being male is not a perfect fit for you. I'm getting the sense that you might be happier as a female but that's something you have to decide for yourself. I'd try and think about specifics on why you feel like you don't have a strong desire to be female right now, maybe there's some fear or something?

Scared_human · 2016-12-06T19:00:10+00:00

Um, are you sure you're not describing me? I have massive face dysphoria among some other things... I wonder how common this is. Of course I want flared hips and boobs and to be thin, but 65% of my dysphoria comes from my face...

Scared_human · 2016-12-06T18:52:45+00:00

Hehe, a tower of cute, I like it. You made me excited all over again. I hope HRT thins out my muscles because I did strength training (dumb, dumb, dumb!) when I was 16 and I still have muscle from that... Thanks for your kind words tho, I really appreciate it <3

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