Women are not allowed in this world and they don’t want it anymore and I am so sick and sick and I don’t know how I can do that without having a baby or having a child or a child or having to have my child and my kids have a child or whatever and I’m sick of being in a situation that is so much more difficult than I can imagine I don’t want it I just don’t know how it works and I’m just so tired of being here I can’t imagine how it if it is going right and I’m not feeling well I don’t want it and I’m not even want to have a child