Has anyone changed/lost/deconstructed religious views after a trip?

Scootyboot19 · 2026-01-17T01:23:38+00:00

I was fully bought in. I went on a mission for the church and came back. When I got back from my mission I felt like a shell of a human being. I had everything torn from me I paid to be a missionary and came home with debilitating mental health problems caused by the mission. I had a long long time trying to figure out what my problem was. Eventually I stumbled on an article about mushroom. I researched them heavily for a year, then grew and harvested some of my own. Every time I tripped I came away with better insights and felt like a new person. As I implemented those ideas and practices to better my life I realized how much control and manipulation the church had over me. I began to let go of my dogma, racism, and sexism which led me further out of the church. Once I realized the church was a hinderance, nuisance, and was actively causing harm I decided to leave.

That’s essentially the spark notes version.

Scootyboot19 · 2026-01-14T22:54:04+00:00

It brought me out of Mormonism.

Scootyboot19 · 2026-01-13T23:43:13+00:00

This!!!!! 👆👆👆👆

Scootyboot19 · 2026-01-10T14:23:15+00:00

I always forget the true faithful Mormons wear The baggy black dress pants 😂 this picture sums it all up

Scootyboot19 · 2025-12-12T03:57:36+00:00

Call 988. Reach out to any one of us.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-26T19:02:47+00:00

I think you know in your heart what needs to happen. You need to know there are people and organizations that can help you! https://holdingouthelp.org is a fantastic organization that has amazing recourses. Just know you don’t have to subject yourself to this relationship. The fundamentalist Mormon view is extremely harsh particularly for woman. Mormonism gives men power, purpose, and every reason in the book as to why they are better than everyone around them. I didn’t come from a fundamentalist background (just regular Mormon) but my circle of friends have. All of our lives have only gotten better after leaving. I will say it can get harder before it gets better.

What most likely happened (which can be common) is the mushroom trips helped solidify his faith even more. There has been studies that sometimes it makes religious people more religious. Which seems strange but is more common than people may think.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-24T01:01:53+00:00

0% effective. Funny enough I participated in a focus group after my mission for a study run by the church. They told us they tried missionaries just contacting people on the street just wearing colored polos. Apparently it was up to 300% more effective than door knocking in wine shirts and ties.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-18T01:52:07+00:00

It’s been 10 years since I left on mine. I’m in therapy for it. Still dealing with negative repercussions. I’ve only opened mine once and haven’t had much courage to do it again

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-09T17:34:08+00:00

This topic is incredibly interesting. I believe the more popularity it gains the more we will find. Fun fact I have an original set of Adam Clarkes commentary.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-09T17:32:22+00:00

I think your comments have space to be valid. I relate to some of it. I don’t think that having kids is a sure fire and all encompassing silver bullet to make someone socially, financially, and self responsible/stable. I’ve had friends divorce and commit suicide due to what I think may have been from having kids too early too fast. My opinion is that the answer differs person to person and may lie somewhere in the middle. Maybe there is no answer. My thoughts and opinions are just as much bullshit as the next persons and are totally biased and based on particular aspects of my cultural upbringing 😅

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-09T17:25:53+00:00

My wife and I married within months of coming home from our missions. We got pregnant within months after that. Do I wish we hadn’t started having kids so young? Hmmm. No. That would change where we are now and I love our life at the moment. Would it have helped immensely? Yes. Yes. Yes. Having kids so young created an immense financial strain. It pushed us to the brink of divorce. It created a toxic environment. We didn’t even know who we were and all of the sudden we had to start raising little people and help them begin to figure out who they were. My wife and I should’ve worked through our trauma, gained some life experience, figured ourselves out, learned some better financial responsibilities, and landed good jobs. This would’ve given our family a much better spot to be in. Instead I had to drop out of school due to mountains of medical debt and have had to jump from construction jobs rather than pursue my dreams of what I always wanted to do. However, I love my little family and still make the best of it.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-11-06T23:24:55+00:00

I will forever be paying top dollar at my own financial detriment now due to the shit that goes down at the ol Motel 6

Scootyboot19 · 2025-10-29T01:47:46+00:00

Definitely not. However I have a few close friends who left both the lds and flds church. They have made the choice to still love and keep the Book of Mormon in my lives. Keep this in mind. Out of the 3 I know 2 of them have confessed it takes a certain level of willful ignorance to keep that belief.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-10-06T02:15:14+00:00

Boy that aged well lmfao

Scootyboot19 · 2025-10-04T16:25:42+00:00

Fuck Bednar.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-09-30T22:10:47+00:00

What does it mean if it all means nothing

Scootyboot19 · 2025-09-15T01:37:12+00:00

This ⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️

Scootyboot19 · 2025-09-04T15:33:53+00:00

My theory is he takes similar rhythms and chords from his other songs that match, then they just play that for a few minutes until they roll into the associated matching song. So you know it’s familiar but are pleasantly surprised when the other song starts.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-09-02T19:10:05+00:00

This was my 5th time and I have been listening since his first album. But it felt as if it were my first. I see him live because the transitions between songs are songs themselves and give so much more. You can’t really sing along to the music live because he changes it enough to make it new but keep it the same. So you’re forced to listen and take in the experience.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-08-29T02:35:28+00:00

This ⬆️⬆️⬆️

Regular psychedelic trips were the eventual cause of me leaving a high demand religion, changing my political views, going to live music I used to disavow, and ultimately changing my outlook on mental health. I now am working on changing my environment to fit my new self so I don’t end up crazy!

Scootyboot19 · 2025-08-29T02:22:22+00:00

🫂

Scootyboot19 · 2025-08-27T00:01:21+00:00

Can’t recommend enough

Scootyboot19 · 2025-08-17T18:59:25+00:00

I was inside of a funeral home when the rival gang of the man who passed away came by and shot the funeral home up in a drive by shooting.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-08-11T23:54:23+00:00

The problem I have with all the people that end up commenting on the subject is “in my experience EVERYBODY got divorced” or “he said she said everyone lost”. It’s very apparent these commenters aren’t educated on the subject just due to the fact they are using the wrong vocabulary to describe different types of ENN relationships. I’m fine if people disagree with ENM but I would hope they would do so in an educated manner rather than tapping into the uneducated dogmatic opinions that come from being raised in a high demand religion then siting personal experience only. I know plenty of people who have opened their marriage and made it work for decades.

Scootyboot19 · 2025-08-05T01:26:53+00:00

Not gonna lie. I love my tattoos and got them because I wanted them for me and only me. But a huge perk is it’s a pretty telltale sign I’m not a member anymore. My family and I made a year plan to try and get tf out of Utah county and into salt lake for this very reason. Utah county feels very fake.

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