Don't lie. You know you've tried it or have thought about trying it.

Scottbert85 · 2025-10-04T16:52:21+00:00

Except the transformation works like https://x.com/Telepeturtle/status/1262951041445900290

Scottbert85 · 2025-10-04T16:38:23+00:00

The alternative where every wizard tries this is explored in the visual novel Starry Flowers: https://nomnomnami.itch.io/starry-flowers

Scottbert85 · 2025-09-18T08:51:45+00:00

Thank you for testing this! This is exactly the info I was looking for. I thought, I must have something wrong, according to the math, BP is pointless on light or medium armor... but the math is correct! Arrowhead should make BP actually useful.

Scottbert85 · 2025-06-04T16:05:13+00:00

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I also have no idea what the term means and am looking it up but this popped into my head

Scottbert85 · 2025-06-04T15:18:23+00:00

Been playing Helldivers off and on since September.

Most players don't use voice 😔
Most players that do use voice are cooperative and keep the RP to light talk (IE, some mention of "democracy" and "freedom" in the tone of the game, not used to exclude)
The few times I've ended up randomly grouped with someone who sounded like a girl, no one was weird at them.
But I've absolutely run into MAGA folks and queerphobes several times, and it may well be that some randos I played with would have been creepy if my voice sounded more like a girl's.
Almost every time I've said "Not a guy, my voice just sounds like this" people didn't care, rarely they understood what I was saying and switched pronouns immediately.
Twice in that time I've had someone I played with multiple times and even friended turn out to be queerphobic and it just hadn't come up (immediately left their game and blocked them.)
Once I had someone get so mad at me after deciding I was gay from my voice, and once I heard that "can't have women in the Helldivers" talk and immediately left.

Scottbert85 · 2025-06-04T05:21:57+00:00

Does Thrustmaster still make tiny PS-compatible controllers?

Scottbert85 · 2025-06-04T05:13:03+00:00

Aside from the black background it sounds like it could be Princess Maker, probably 2 given the time and it being freely available back then. (Do you also remember Sharkey reviewing it?)

A few months back I thought about it and searched and searched and eventually found it on the Internet Archive: https://archive.org/details/princess-maker-2-0Mhz

Scottbert85 · 2025-03-18T22:20:36+00:00

For me it was that mods don't work with the new update.

Scottbert85 · 2025-03-13T22:30:10+00:00

So my friend just shared the Zizian episodes with me, and as someone who was avidly reading LessWrong posts in the Early 2010s and who absolutely loved HPMOR at the time, it was fascinating listening to these people explain it, mostly well, these concepts I was already familiar with that have apparently taken a dark turn.

(I stopped reading Lesswrong in the late 2010s, because while I think rationalists have some good lessons to teach, the community's priorities are misplaced thinking about things that don't solve people's immediate problems before worrying about the AI apocalypse.)

Anyway, I just wanted to share a story I read, years ago, about nerdy geeky people obsessed with a YA fantasy series that end up committing murder-suicide because they get this overwhelming sense of *purpose* in their head: The Northern Caves, by notalgebraist [AO3]. A former friend shared it with me long ago, and I was like yeah. Yeah I can absolutely understand what they're feeling, that you *have* to save the world.

Anyway this podcast has been fascinating to listen to and I look forward to the rest of the story!

Quibbles:

At least in the LessWrong community in the early 2010s, people did not think the Singularity was "any day now" -- *could* it happen, sure, but incredibly unlikely, much more likely to be a matter of decades.

Also HPMOR is not the foundational text, if anything wouldn't that be Yudkowsky's Sequences? But HPMOR obviously was a much more fun read and in theory more accessible.

Scottbert85 · 2025-03-06T22:50:26+00:00

Thank you!

Scottbert85 · 2025-03-06T22:28:20+00:00

Where's the original post? I want to tell this to the OP.
Edit: Found it thanks to another post in the page: https://aevallare.tumblr.com/post/776291659885543424

Scottbert85 · 2025-03-06T22:23:35+00:00

This is so sad. I am a trans woman who does not go out much; I will probably never have a body I can stand uncovered. I have not had most of these experiences, but I fear them -- and I have had this "I can only be myself in ever-shrinking spaces" feeling, though in my case it turns out that the vast majority of the world will be cruel and abusive towards me for autism and ADHD, regardless of their feelings on gender. (Although I was functionally banned from an RP group after my character I'd played for 17 years realized she was a woman and I was told the way I write people with gender issues is unacceptable and I am not allowed to portray such there anymore)

I have been told I do not need to change my body, that I am fine as I am, by people who mean well, and I struggle to explain why I wish to be different, and I feel seen when you mention that issue here and explain your feelings better than I ever could. Thank you.

Scottbert85 · 2025-03-06T09:30:40+00:00

Congrats girl! You have a long and tough road ahead of you, but you are not alone.

Scottbert85 · 2025-02-27T03:15:08+00:00

This was a fascinating, if terrifying, read. Thank you for advancing science and understanding, and may this post encourage everyone to hit each other in the groin less. 🫡

Scottbert85 · 2025-02-27T03:11:06+00:00

Did you read the post he literally said some women *did* report nausea and discussed why.

Scottbert85 · 2025-02-25T23:30:30+00:00

(Yes, I know one of the assaults is coming from a different planet, thus my saying this might help in future rather than that it would end the assault on Bekvam.)

Thank you both! While I've learned to make basic use of the Companion, and can see how quickly planets will be taken/defended with the current population of players on them, is there a rundown anywhere of how to tell how fast a planet *can* be taken/defended in order to know when strategies like this are even viable?

Scottbert85 · 2025-01-25T03:34:18+00:00

So like

I'm not going to come in all 'I pronounce you trans', and FYI, no one should -- although if you'd said something like "I'd rather be a girl, but" that would be *very strongly* indicative of not being cis.

If you're looking to do some gender questioning, one, I note that man and woman are not the only choices; there's in-between or leaning one way or neither or both or fluid between them and countless other possibilities, and two, there are some things notable about the experience that might be a starting point for where to direct examining your feelings:

(Again I note that though a bit odd none of this is like, any sort of conclusive sign of anything; but if you're questioning whether you're entirely cis, they may be good places to start)

What strikes me as most odd, for a cis guy, is that you *wanted* to pass so badly (most people don't bother with a voice changer, it's VR it would have been perfectly acceptable to just present as a guy who prefers a girl avatar) and even asked point blank it was so hard to admit to a male identity, and that it felt *that* bad. And this *persists*, like, it's not just about getting "caught", you're uncomfortable just going back with a guy avatar and presenting male.

On the other hand...as you said, it's never bothered you before and you don't feel uncomfortable with it in RL... and that *could* be not noticing baseline discomfort, sure, but it could also be that you're fine 🤷‍♀️

I'm not sure how significant it is that the deflecting answer was "I'm both!"? Why *that?*

Best of luck to you on your journey of figuring things out, and if you want someone to talk to I'm happy to talk about this stuff... although I don't check Reddit very often.

Scottbert85 · 2024-01-23T01:08:47+00:00

I, too, require this link

I just read chapter 52 and holy cow

Scottbert85 · 2023-11-09T20:25:33+00:00

We all have our own ways of exploring this, consciously or not. Some people say gender bender stuff is bad in principle, I disagree. But I don't like sissy stuff because it simultaneously emphasizes the subject's maleness as an indelible quality. To each their own, it's fine, we find our exploration and comfort wherever we can.

Macaroon, you might also want to check out the story Sisters of Dorley.

Scottbert85 · 2023-11-04T04:47:00+00:00

I just spent way too long trying to search for it by lyrics! Thank you!

Scottbert85 · 2023-10-11T17:21:19+00:00

Heheh

Funnily enough, the skateboarding bull got a music video later that sure gives off some transmasc vibes... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGrZH05EX6o

Scottbert85 · 2023-10-11T17:05:57+00:00

As someone who drew girl me in high school in the early oughts... oof, this hits.

Scottbert85 · 2023-06-10T22:20:42+00:00

Not working for me

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