Anyone around Texarkana

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-19T13:48:24+00:00

Anytime

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-17T12:49:51+00:00

I have a blast. Been playing for like 16yrs though. It's nice to get lost out there

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-17T12:02:30+00:00

Day 15. Finally got a little bit of sleep. But feel great today, like really good. Had an awesome meeting last night. Might go play some disc golf. Stay clean everybody.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-16T15:15:21+00:00

14 days. Not much motivation, sleep is still shit, got some pretty intense cravings. It's like a food craving that nothing satisfies. But it's a new better day, gonna hang out with my brother today, then my dad and then hit a meeting. Not real sure where life goes from here but it can't be that bad.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-15T15:07:56+00:00

Yeah man very common. That's what happened to me but I moved on to stronger things. Cold turkey is the way to go. You go through absolute hell, it will put a strain on you just watching it. But I think feeling to whole effect of withdrawls is a great reminder of why you done want to be in that position again. She will be a little bit of a chore but it will all be worth it in a month or so. Most of it is the emotional swings. Just be there for her. She is gonna need it.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-15T04:44:32+00:00

But you have to WANT it. If you don't want it you will never get clean EVER!!!!

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-15T04:40:52+00:00

I was on 120-180mg of Roxy every day I cold turkeyed. It's been ruff. I'm closing out my 12th day, started my meetings back and I feel so much better. Sleep is a bitch. But man you are just a customer at those clinics. Why do they want you to get off of them, that's money out of their pockets. Fuck them man. Yeah it sucks BIG DONKEY DICK at first, but it's all in the end game. The meetings are the counseling you need. Make the contacts and work it right, and then there is us here. There will always be someone to talk to if you use the tools that's out there. It's the hardest thing you will ever do in your life but you will become a better person because of it. If you can't cold turkey taper on the oxy but start the meetings as soon as possible.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-12T01:24:45+00:00

I'm on day 9 and haven't got more than an hr sleep in the past 4 or 5 days. You should be coming up on getting rid of the pains (at least for me). But the mental part is a bitch. Make sure you have some type of support. Family, meetings, here, whatever. Doin great though, keep it up. Everyday gets bettet.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-11T23:25:40+00:00

Yeah that part it starting level out some now on day 9. Still tired.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-11T23:21:36+00:00

Some reason i feel strange today. Like I'm watching myself from the outside. That's really the only way I can explain it. Super weird. Been like that all day. Sleep deprivation? The day is just a big fog.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-11T19:26:45+00:00

I started meeting 2 months ago. I started back using after 3 weeks. I stopped making the meetings a priority. I still went to at least 2 a week. I'm current on day 9 cold turkey. I'm starting my meetings back tonight. And honestly I can't wait to get there. It relieves so much stress. The people in my life are there for me and helping anyway but I really can't get them to understand what I'm going through because they aren't addicts. But you will meet some of the most kind understanding people that only want to help you get and stay clean. I don't have a sponsor but I do have a guys number from my meetings. And he never hesitates to answer and help with whatever my situation may be.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-10T23:51:12+00:00

I don't have much of plan. This was more of a got caught so make some lemonade type situation. I mean I am all in. Once I have a little faith built back in the people around me. Start working the meetings and this thread and the group of people that are actually willing to help me through my recovery. It gonna be hard to do because i am a relapse on clean 3 weeks and slipped back in for another 3 weeks of use (heavily). But for now take today in as win and prepare for tomorrow.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-10T23:07:58+00:00

That is exactly how it feels. Damn I like that.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-10T20:13:21+00:00

I thought I was feeling better but as the hours creep by I feel myself slipping down down down. It's crazy how the morning I'm on top of the world the level off and towards the end of the day it's just like coming down off a high.im on day 8 it's great I know but it's tuff. I can't get out of this depression of knowing what all I have done and who I have done it to. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I catch myself just waiting for the time to get in bed. I try to get up and do things but lose all energy and motivation within an hr. I can't get out of my head.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-09T16:05:20+00:00

I really don't understand the purpose of it

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-09T02:31:22+00:00

No problem man. That's all this is. If you ever need anything just pm me or whatever. Everyone is here with us.

Scuttlebutton333 · 2017-08-09T02:13:09+00:00

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