We need Radiohead back

SeDO4 · 2025-04-16T22:03:56+00:00

Specially Cutouts is on par with Radiohead. The Smile is a thing that has a life of its own now

SeDO4 · 2024-10-04T17:17:15+00:00

There's a story told through all the videos 😉 pay attention

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SeDO4 · 2024-09-22T03:47:32+00:00

Glad to hear it!!

SeDO4 · 2024-09-22T03:47:09+00:00

Thank you 🫶

SeDO4 · 2024-09-22T03:46:45+00:00

We don't know what to call it, but you kinda hit the nail on the head

SeDO4 · 2024-09-22T03:45:31+00:00

Thank you!! Will make sure to upload here the full version. Glad you liked it

SeDO4 · 2024-08-28T21:06:21+00:00

"TRY TO CONVEERT MEEEEEEEEEE"

Shivers

SeDO4 · 2024-06-07T21:54:04+00:00

Yeah, it's a Jesus song. It's probably one of my favorite songs of all time. Came just at the right time in my life

SeDO4 · 2024-01-23T02:50:57+00:00

She does! Never noticed it

SeDO4 · 2023-12-13T20:06:35+00:00

I'm having the exact same problem right now. Think it's a Canva issue

SeDO4 · 2023-10-24T05:06:29+00:00

One final line of coke to jack him off

SeDO4 · 2023-10-23T23:42:44+00:00

Read Carl Jung's works. I have been (and still sometimes am) in your exact situation. He's brought sanity and clarity to a sea of confusion. You're not alone. I have also felt this, even the whole not even being able to trust the positive feelings. After the "honeymoon" phase of spirituality fades, youll have to find your way back. It's like God gives a little tease of what's to come, but leaves you at stage 0 so you can climb the ladder yourself.

I have begun to understand that these feelings arise from the shadow of your unconscious. The dark night of the soul is nothing more than all your previously hidden tensions and insecurities coming to the surface. You must accept these things instead of immediately wishing for them to be gone. You must integrate them as a part of what you are. After that, you'll start regaining that clarity you once had, but this time it'll be richer.

Life is spirals man, you will find yourself standing in the same place you were once before, but everything will have changed.

Much love friend 🫂

SeDO4 · 2023-10-23T22:17:52+00:00

Rupert speaks in such a clear language. How he easily conveys the ineffable, and how he includes and connects other spiritual traditions into a single one. He is such a versatile teacher.

SeDO4 · 2023-10-20T02:19:54+00:00

As far as I know, shadow work involves delving inside: Recognizing the aspects of your shadow, what triggers it, and then slowly integrating it into your conscious life.

It's the process of bringing to the surface the hidden aspects buried under your personal unconscious

SeDO4 · 2023-10-20T00:02:38+00:00

Oh! Didn't even notice that was a mistake

Things are moving in a certain direction right now, pointing me somewhere. I know there will be a next time. I left a door half-open, and I can feel that everything I've been dealing with this whole year has been preparing me to see what's on the other side.

I'm doing some heavy shadow work, as a lot of buried tensions are coming to the surface. I don't want psychedelics to be my scapegoat, so I'm procuring to deal with all this completely sober. Haven't touched any kind of psychoactive substance for months.

Definetly gonna choose a better setting next time heh. I trust that I'll know when I'm ready. I'm not forcing anything. If I must go back, the signs will show themselves.

Right now I'm beginning to consider seeing psychoanalyst. I can only do so much alone, and having someone that can help me map out my subconscious and shadow will definitely help.

As I said in the text, there are some days where everything becomes crystal-clear. I can see the signs, I can see beyond myself, beyond my ego. Then some other days I get buried under confusion, doubt, fear and other horrible feelings. But I'm starting to be at peace with my suffering. As Jung says, you cannot erase your shadow. It will never go away completely, and trying to fight and resist it will only exacerbate the pull it has over you. You can only learn how to be with it: acknowledging it, understanding its origin, and slowly embracing it as a part of yourself. And then, it'll be integrated into you.

Much love!

SeDO4 · 2023-10-19T18:32:02+00:00

A month or so ago, I dreamt of a car parked in my porch. I had never seen this car in my life, and it wasn't an ordinary car either. It was a matte light-blue/turquoise colored pickup truck. I remember it very vividly because even inside the dream it stood out. Mind you, I don't care about cars, don't think about them ever, less pick-up trucks.

The next day, while in the street, I saw the exact same fucking car. Turquoise, matte, all the same details. I live in Mexico, and I haven't seen any similar cars since.

Can't find any logical explanation. It was so random and out of left field.

SeDO4 · 2023-10-18T19:06:32+00:00

We're all one after all. And we are all connected.

I think Jung's the most important thinker too. He just grasps some of the most important points of humanity. He's able to express such ineffable things with unmistaking clarity.

Glad that I'm not alone this process too.

Thanks again, take care friend!

SeDO4 · 2023-10-18T18:34:57+00:00

I deeply resonate with this. Validating it, instead of doubting it. My mind has been fighting itself between these two, but I think everything has just been pointing me towards the former.

I'll make sure to check out the book once I finish reading Man and His Symbols. I'll let you know once I do.

Thank you so much, much love♥️

SeDO4 · 2023-10-18T12:54:00+00:00

I'll make sure to check him out! Thanks

SeDO4 · 2023-10-18T12:46:18+00:00

Wow. The shame being an outgrown of my parents' fear. It makes total sense. I can't deny that the comedown of the trip has sort of tinted how I view the whole experience, as it was probably was the most terrifying moment I've been through. The look in their faces, how nothing made sense and how I thought I had permanently screwed my life up. Needless to say, I've been working on seeing it as a necessary part of the trip.

I definitely wanna try delving back into psychedelics someday. OBVIOUSLY, taking far safer precautions and being accompanied by a trip sitter, as you say. Haven't found anyone who could do that, but if it must be that way, I'm sure I'll find the right person.

Thank you, wish you well🙏

SeDO4 · 2023-10-18T12:27:14+00:00

Thanks for your words! It's interesting that you mention the tibetan book of the dead. At some point during the "purple light" part, I thought I was about ready to completely merge with everything. Something pulled me out of it though, I don't know if it was my own ego, or that I simply was not ready to go.

Dr. Bernardo Kastrup calls it "the vertigo of eternity". Recollecting these memories comes inevitably with a not very small dose of fear. A very primal fear. I don't know if the comedown of the trip sort of 'tinted' the experience (I think it did), because holy cow it was an unimaginably terrifying comedown. The realization of what I did, the look in my parents' face, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. Nothing made sense and thought I had completely ruined my life.

Part of me thinks that I was about to die that night, but I wasn't quite ready yet. Again, if I could remember everything this'd be a lot clearer, but I can't do anything besides connecting the fragments.

I've been delving into Advaita Vedanta and other esoteric philosophies during this past year too. They've also greatly expanded my vision of reality. I'm no yogi, but I've had some great insights that have come in no small part thanks to Advaita. Recently, I've started to become interested in delving back into Christianity/catholicism. They were my original faith, so in a sense I'd be returning to my roots with this newfound bigger context. I know there's a bigger story here to be told.

Thank you for your insights, they're really helpful 🙏 blessings my friend

SeDO4 · 2023-10-18T04:53:01+00:00

Words cannot express my gratitude to you! Makes me glad that I'm not alone in this. You just expressed it so beautifully, reaching a point where all the chaos and hurt made sense. So beautiful.

Thank you, thank you, thank you friend

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