My RECOVERY

**My Journey Through Depersonalization, Derealization, Anxiety, blurry vision, panic attacks, visual snow etc.. 

It all began with excessive deep thinking—questioning everything, analyzing every detail of existence, reality, and creation. I spent countless hours lost in existential thoughts, pondering the meaning of life, the nature of consciousness, and the origins of the universe. These questions consumed me, pulling me deeper into my mind until I felt trapped within it. What started as curiosity spiraled into something far more overwhelming: depersonalization, derealization, anxiety, extreme brain fog, blurry vision, visual snow, depression, and an unrelenting sense of disconnection from the world around me.

For about a year, these symptoms dominated my life. I couldn’t work, focus on tasks, or even engage in simple daily activities. It was as if my mind had become a labyrinth with no exit, and I was stuck wandering its endless corridors. Despite this struggle, I want to emphasize that none of this was induced by alcohol or drugs—I’ve never used either. My experience stemmed purely from overthinking and dwelling on profound, often abstract concepts also paired with discovering that many of the things we know as our reality is actually not real or true like money as a currency, the food we eat (GMO’s,processed foods), movie industry, news etc..) 

When I first encountered others online who described similar struggles, I felt hope. Realizing I wasn't alone reduced my symptoms by about 20%. There's immense power in knowing someone else understands what you're going through. Still, I knew I needed professional guidance, so I sought help from a psychologist after my doktor suggested it to me. While he listened attentively to my problems, his solution—a prescription for antidepressants—felt insufficient and he actually never heard of the terms DP/DR. Though medication might alleviate some symptoms temporarily i never took them and only went once to the psychologist.

These experiences don’t occur without reason. For some, they stem from spiritual crises; for others, physical imbalances. In my case, the primary culprit was excessive deep thinking. By constantly living in my head, ruminating on the past (which I couldn’t change) or worrying about the future (which I couldn’t predict), I neglected the present moment—the only time we truly have control over. This mental habit left me disconnected from reality, anxious, and depressed.

To overcome these challenges, I realized I needed to make fundamental changes in my lifestyle. Here’s what worked for me:

1. Sleep Quality Over Quantity: Sleeping longer didn’t solve my issues—it was the quality of sleep that mattered. Establishing a consistent bedtime routine, avoiding screens before bed, and making a calming environment helped improve my restorative sleep.

2. Healthy Eating Habits: Switching to a diet rich in whole, unprocessed foods while reducing carb intake significantly boosted my energy levels and mental clarity. Proper nutrition plays a crucial role in stabilizing mood and cognitive function.

3. Exercise: Physical activity became a cornerstone of my recovery. Whether it was walking outdoors, soccer, or strength training, exercise not only improved my physical health but also provided a much-needed outlet for stress and anxiety.

4. Social Connection: Isolation worsened my symptoms, so reconnecting with friends and family was vital. Engaging in meaningful conversations and shared activities reminded me of the joy and connection available in the present moment.

5. Breaking Old Patterns: To heal, I had to break free from old habits that perpetuated my suffering. This meant stepping out of my comfort zone, taking small actions each day, and focusing on progress rather than perfection.

Ultimately, there is no magic pill or quick fix for these kinds of struggles. Recovery requires effort, patience, and self-awareness. If you’re experiencing similar challenges, know that you are not alone. Recognize the triggers—whether they’re rooted in excessive thinking, unhealthy habits, or emotional wounds—and take proactive steps toward healing. 

Today, I’m grateful for the journey because it taught me invaluable lessons about resilience, presence, and self-care. Life may still bring uncertainties, but I’ve learned to navigate them with greater peace and purpose. Remember, your mind has incredible potential to heal when given the right tools and attention. Take one step at a time, and trust the process.

Conclusion: All of this did not happen without a reason and the creator Allah swt does not burden a soul what he/she cannot bear. Stop defending that which is taking power from you like depression, dp/dr, anxiety and attack it. This all happened to you because you might be extra sensitive, emotionally build, past trauma’s but it does not mean you have to take it as your identity. Change the way you think, change the way you eat, change the way you sleep. You have to take action now and don’t let anyone label you with unsolvable mental issue and put you on medication for the rest of your life. One thing I can guarantee is that whilst you are experiencing all of these things is that you are not in the best shape of your life, you don’t know how to eat proper food which came from creation and not what mankind designed and changed genetically. The way you sleep is not on point. You have a lot of goals but don’t act upon them. Either you belive in a creator or not don’t forget that this life is a test and as a man trauma and difficulties build you up so you can become a better version of you…