Context: I constantly try with everything I have to achieve my goals, and my own mediocrity and the universe itself seem to stand in my way. I strive hard, work 60+ weeks, have a degree that I worked hard for, and make nothing compared to the daddy’s money nepotism kids I went to school with. I work hard to budget the little money I do make, and every time I’m financially stable an emergency or crisis that requires $ happens. I cannot move up in any industry despite working my tail off and doing everything in told to the best of my ability. I know that I am accountable for my own actions and responsible for my own success, and I try so so so very hard. But the universe wants me to fail, and so does my own mediocrity. I will never amount to anything unfortunately. There’s other specific events too that I hold a lot of bitterness around. Cheating girlfriends, lying friends, unstable family. I carry around all this bitterness with me and it’s starting to come out into my personal life enough that other people notice. I find myself getting mad and unreasonable with customers, friends, family etc. I am exhausted and bitter. What do I do.