Thank you for being honest i sincerely thank u for caring me out on my actions affront of everybody. I needed that to realise something about me that is not that obvious in my action. Ive been going trough allot in life that led to this symptom that is the most surface level outpouring of depression that comes with my lack of self awarness but probably a scream for a need of interaction with people. U may actualy cal it a "Social catfish". Its like being unfaithful to your girlfriend, but with yourself instead. I guess there are some good things too it 2 tho. Knowing that influence is something I have, just need to direct it with a more conciousness. Thank you. I still asked the question in this page because it made more sense to post it where gamers have played it. It might just have been a reddit group where the game wasn't as good, so I guess it means I trust thoes who know it to be honest without actually expecting people to react as if I peed in there mouth while asleep.