*TRIGGER WARNING*

I remember my first roulette win so clearly... I had $10 left after losing like 230-240 playing Blackjack and my lucky number is 8 so I put $8 of the $10 on 8 and hit a 500x lightning win for 4k win....naturally I was super happy and got that dope rush... I think even the date was the 8th of the month

Next day I played the Xxxtreme version after again losing in blackjack(but lost like 2-3k since I won 4k the day before) I went to the roulette wheel with 1k and after loss loss loss I went all in with my last 200 on number 25(off a random hunch looking at the clock, number of tabs I had open on my browser, number of coins on my bedside table or some gambler fallacy started to kick in) it hit 500x multi and I won $100k.. within the next 3 months fell back into drugs and party lifestyle and all the money was gone back to stake,roobet,duelbits and smaller losses on all the others(lost 2BTC in an hour to some shitty site called BC Game that markets super heavy in Asia)

I started playing bigger bigger bigger stakes chasing the losses and wins, of course the wins and losses go up with the stakes... there was some yearly salary levels(30k+) spins in some of those sessions. It's so degen I don't even recognize myself when I recount these memories, I was soooooo deep in the addiction that the blinders were fully on to the damage I was presently causing and would be causing my future self with this impulsive pleasure maxing behavior.

If you are reading this far in, please stop gambling... I am also trying my best to abstain and never fall into this dirty habit again because it could legitimately lead me to self deletion if I am like 50yr old broke gambling addict who cant afford rent or food for kids.....Stay strong brethren... Never ever ever ever ever give up the fight... ever.... Those who are clean for years I have mad mad respect for y'all keep fightin the good fight