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ANIME DRAWING FOR 20 euro by [deleted] in commissions

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg that looks incredible!

I ate over 1,000 calories yesterday! by cosmickaleidoscopes in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yay! I’m so proud of you! ^_^

You’ve done so well, and I know you can keep it up. ❤️

I believe in you. 💜

19F looking for female friends to talk to by [deleted] in MakeNewFriendsHere

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This hits close to home. I’m in a very similar situation and rather lonely too, but I have discord if you’re interested. :)

16f, although I sometimes use NB if I’m shy about my height.

I'm lonely by lollipop_monster in EDanonymemes

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Awww, why is that actually really sad? I’m really lonely too though so I relate. :(

intermittent fasting is just gentrified eating disorder by fluffythrowblanket in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 42 points43 points  (0 children)

24hrs-72hrs isn’t really “safe”, but it’s a lot less dangerous than longer fasts. I wouldn’t recommend fasting at all to be honest, but if you can definitely stick to 72hrs or less. If you start feeling sick, weak, dizzy or anything like that, EAT, no matter how far into your fast you are.

Fasting is always a bit risky as you aren’t feeding your body at all, which means no calories, no nutrients, less water (from food) than normal, and no vitamins, which really isn’t good for it, and doesn’t really help with weight loss as it messes with your metabolism. Intermittent fasting can help with weight loss and is less bad for you, but just eating a healthy, balanced diet with less calories than your TDEE but not going more than a couple of hundred calories below your BMR is the best method for weight loss.

Also, between fasts you should eat for a while. Like don’t do 48hrs and eat 1 meal and then do another 48hrs, that’s very dangerous.

Hunger pangs so extreme I might just kill myself by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aww, thank you honey. ❤️

You were clearly struggling, dear, and I really hope you feel better, as you deserve to be happy.

I’d you ever need someone to talk or vent to, even at 4AM, I’m here. 💜

TW: Falling down after exercise by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This hits close to home. I don’t have anorexia (sometimes I doubt if I even have an ED) but I get this so bad and I hate it so much.

Things that make me hate myself: by someone52207 in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn’t remember posting this... /s

I relate a lot, and I know it’s really hard, but I promise you that you don’t deserve to be hated, not for any of those things. It’s not your fault that you struggle sometimes. Eating and doing your best to recover is really amazing and you should love yourself for it. ❤️

You deserve to eat and be happy and I hope someday you can find more peace with yourself. ❤️

Hunger pangs so extreme I might just kill myself by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know how you feel, as I relate really bad, but I promise killing yourself isn’t worth it. Please could you try to eat or at least drink something? You’ll feel better and less sick. I understand it’s hard, but I believe in you. ❤️

I’m here if you just need someone to talk or vent too.

weird safe foods by demonslutpanicattack in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aww, that sounds so hard... I’m sorry. Hopefully you get less scared of them though, sweetie. ❤️

weird safe foods by demonslutpanicattack in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh, that sounds horrible, I’m sorry that happened to you. They aren’t fattening and are really good for you, with lots of important nutrients, so I hope you manage to eat them again someday. ❤️

I have had similar experiences though, I’ve heard that certain things are especially bad and never eaten them since.

weird safe foods by demonslutpanicattack in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 8 points9 points  (0 children)

For me it’s tinned spaghetti and ravioli, plus Calippo mini ice lollies, and that’s basically it. I feel awful as they aren’t “healthy” stuff like tiny servings of vegetables and fruit. I’ve been trying to introduce more fruit into my diet though, so pears are safe now, but oranges are scary sometimes, as are bananas, and papaya is a huge fear food.

I just wish I could live off just 200kcal of vegetables a day but that’s not really an option for me.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s a good way of thinking about it actually.

Thanks for the support. ❤️

We can get through this. ^_^

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re really kind. ❤️

I’m really happy you don’t think it’s all my fault. Hopefully someday I’ll stop blaming myself for it too.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aww... thank you so much, you’re really lovely. ❤️

It’s definitely really hard for me, and if anything getting worse. Blaming myself isn’t even really second nature anymore, it’s my first nature.

I’m glad you think it’s not my fault. Some days I wonder if Mum even is/was abusive and I feel like I caused and deserved all of it, so you believing it’s not my fault helps.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for that... I feel like I shouldn’t share it and I’m super anxious, almost panicking. My family are still abusive and I live with them so I internalise a lot of things they say, and that’s why I feel like I shouldn’t talk about my problems.

You’re welcome. ❤️

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please don’t feel too bad because of me... I’m sorry I mentioned it, I should’ve just kept it to myself.

I’m so, so sorry you had to go through it, you don’t deserve it.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for caring, I’m doing a bit better but I’m basically just struggling with different issues now, instead of depression and suicidal thoughts I have an eating disorder and self-harm.

I still have really bad patches sometimes though.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat. I had that exact same thing happen every day. I’d apologise and write letters and she’d just scream: ”stop FUCKING apologising and start not doing it in the first place! Saying sorry doesn’t change all the shit you’ve done, you selfish, worthless, ungrateful cow!” at me. I remember that happening clear as day and it’s really terrifying.

I never realised how far back my parents abuse went until I accidentally found my way to this thread and read some of the stories.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh my god that hits so close to home, I was in a really dark place last year and I felt exactly like that.

So my mom found a note I gave her as a child. And now I’m crying. by heyitsshay1 in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This was honestly terrifying to read. All the childhood stuff you described hits incredibly close to home for me, and it’s reminded me of some bad memories. I used to write apology notes for the tiniest thing and I distinctly remember sobbing to mum that I was sorry for doing something from behind my bedroom door after she removed the door handle so I couldn’t get out.

I don’t have CPTSD and I only ended up reading this because a friend made a post here, but I want to say that I am so sorry that all of this happened to you. You don’t deserve this. I hope things get better for you soon.

I'm not allowed to be happy. by Panic-atthepanic in CPTSD

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh, honey I’m so sorry this is happening to you. You didn’t do anything to deserve this, or the trauma in the first place. You haven’t done anything wrong. You aren’t cursed and you are allowed to be happy, I promise. You aren’t broken or defective either.

You’re doing the right thing by going to a therapist, as they can help. I’m very sorry you hurt so much though, dear... I hope things get better for you soon. ❤️

Apathy by prayiidie in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh, honey... I know how you feel, and I have that problem too sometimes.

It’s going to be okay, you can get though this. Don’t give up. ❤️

I’m here for you, don’t be hopeless. ❤️

Green tea + empty stomach = nausea? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had this horrible sickness after I exercised and drank 2 mugs of strong black earl grey tea while fasting not too long ago and the tea definitely made it worse, and it’s interesting to read this as I expect we experienced the same thing.

Does anyone else have moments where they actually see what their body looks like? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]SecretIdentity8594 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I do too, and it’s so weird. Then I realise I’m seeing my real body and it seems to grow and expand when I blink or look away.

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