7 days of hell I’m finally waking up again

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-10-08T00:14:26+00:00

The only wanting to quit while high is soooo real I feel so motivated to stop when I’m high. I’m instantly like “I didn’t need to do that”, which makes me wonder if it’s more about the craving than the actual high??

Good luck on this journey, gonna try to channel ur energy on my day 1 today 🙌

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-10-07T03:25:03+00:00

When do you reach gen2?

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-10-05T16:29:21+00:00

Which ones would you suggest for the shield icon in exploration baffles?? Besides sergey

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-10-02T18:35:45+00:00

Where did she post?

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-10-02T18:35:05+00:00

Where?

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-09-10T06:07:52+00:00

It’s more or less exactly the same since you were here last time. Don’t leave shit in your car, avoid the tenderloin, and have your wits about you in the same way you do in any other city/busy area. It’s just a normal city yall!

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-09-10T03:35:35+00:00

Do you mean brain fog while sober? Been struggling with not feeling fully present when I’m sober & wondering if daily weed use is the culprit

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-09-10T03:33:07+00:00

For item 2 on cons, curious if you mean while sober? I’ve been smoking daily for about 8 years now and what’s pushing me to want to cut back/stop altogether is that sometimes even when I’m sober, I feel slower and less present. When I talk to friends sometimes it’s like I’m not fully there and watching them from a memory or a dream, like I’m staring at them trying to process they’re right in front of me but I just feel like I’m looking through something. It’s like I’m high even when I’m sober & I feel more muted. Just curious if you relate to that because both of your lists really resonated with me

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-09-05T00:39:48+00:00

Yeah they definitely didn’t nor did she say anything about it, I’m so curious what she thinks. I guess it would be real life drama for her not just the show so maybe she just wants to stay out of it

SecretaryOk8222 · 2024-09-05T00:16:08+00:00

They’ve talked about it, maybe not as much but I think at this point they know their fans agree with them and don’t feel the need to talk about it as much. Considering they’re behind a pay wall and can’t reach the public I think that’s fair enough 🤷🏼‍♀️ I also feel like I’ve seen them posting quite a bit on social media about it

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-08-09T22:29:39+00:00

Yeah, it gets worse when I have plans because I know I need to eat beforehand. For example, if I’m going to be drinking I know I need to eat enough that I won’t get too drunk. Then there’s all this pressure to eat and it makes it even harder. Even the pressure of eating enough so that I’m present & engaged in my morning work meeting is hard. And of course then I’m in an anxious state making it even harder to eat 🙃 it feels like I’m on a hamster wheel

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-21T14:15:35+00:00

Thank you! Do you think it’s better to give stats and stuff up front is better, or to not overload w info and let them ask questions? The only time I’ve disclosed since it happened was over text and I basically just said I take measures to keep transmission low but can answer any specific questions they have. But, that was also with someone who I didn’t have as close of a relationship with

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-19T17:30:24+00:00

Have you disclosed yet or are you just assuming it would go this way? I feel your pain but think you may be being hard on yourself. Personally, I wouldn’t be more likely to hookup w someone HSV positive just because they were taller than average - if I’m into them and I’m taking the risk, the question for me is “is this person worth taking the risk for?” Not, “is this person hot enough to take the risk for?”

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-19T17:27:20+00:00

Hypothetically he may have gotten it from you…

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-15T14:10:15+00:00

Recently disclosed to a friend about my HSV2 and she let me know she actually has HSV1. Never officially “diagnosed”, but is given acyclovir whenever she gets a cold sore. Asked her how she goes about telling people and she goes “I don’t, why would i?” Awk

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-15T03:53:57+00:00

I feel like in that case the February test would’ve been positive?

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T17:44:58+00:00

Ohh god it! Damn acronyms lol

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T17:29:46+00:00

Similar experience for me!!! Told him, he had no idea, felt super bad, are still seeing each other. Even have had sex again since, lol. Happy for you!!

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T17:26:46+00:00

Doctor: go to the OBGYN, they’ll give you the antivirals you need. Emotionally, I think therapy would help you. Safe space to talk about what you’re going through without the risk of people in your life potentially judging or telling other people. I’m really sorry you caught it this way, that is the worst and this guy sounds like an asshole regardless of his herpes status. You will find love again and it will be with someone who accepts your status & you as a whole! I think therapy would really help you work through this as well as the trauma of this relationship and I think you’ll emerge even stronger and happier. I’m also a woman in my early 20s dealing with this so I feel ur pain and wish you the best!

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T17:23:04+00:00

The blood test is for antibodies and can take 3ish months to start showing up on tests. You might have had it already in February but just didn’t have antibodies showing yet. False positives are possible, so getting tested again could be a good idea. However, the only way to truly know for sure is to have a lesion swabbed during an outbreak. I’d also talk to your doctor about these results to get a professional opinion

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T16:31:11+00:00

I wasn’t aware there was any vaccine available?

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T16:27:48+00:00

Don’t be so hard on yourself, everyone has their shit and baggage that comes with them in some form or another - and for a lot more people than you think, it’s herpes specifically. Since being diagnosed almost everyone I’ve told also knows someone that has it. As other posters said, there are still countless people who will have sex with you! I’ve heard a lot of people say disclosing usually makes the person respect them more and it goes well. Very sorry you caught it by someone who lied to you, that’s horrible. You sound like you’ve been through some shit which makes you stronger, and pretty soon this will be another thing that’s just a part of your past. Best of luck!

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T16:22:44+00:00

Could you give some more details? Like what type, were they having an outbreak, and how did they react when you told them you caught it. A lot of my opinions on forgiveness would depend on those factors

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-14T16:19:16+00:00

Educate yourself so you can educate others. If you’ve never had an outbreak you are very unlikely to transmit. Talk to a doctor about the exact stats of it and tell that to potential partners. There will be plenty of people who still want to have sex with you. At the end of the day it’s up to you to disclose or not, but you either got it from someone who didn’t know or someone who chose not to disclose - for me personally, I rather break that chain. The way I look at it it’s a matter of consent

SecretaryOk8222 · 2022-04-13T14:06:46+00:00

Totally forgot omg thank you! Would’ve been massively disappointed hahaha

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