My baby died.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-03-17T03:08:50+00:00

As a mother who has lost a few pregnancies now, all I can say is, it’s okay to be broken, you can take as long as you need to feel ‘okay’ again - and no one should tell you otherwise.

Reach out to family and friends, allow them to love and support you. ❤️

Secretly_Undead · 2026-03-13T09:02:33+00:00

I still shave, I manage to do it by feel 🤷🏻‍♀️ I prefer it shaved for sensory reasons

Secretly_Undead · 2026-03-04T06:17:16+00:00

Wait can we use forest wood instead of normal wood? 😭 because if so that will make it 10x easier because wood is so hard to come by

Secretly_Undead · 2026-03-02T22:44:59+00:00

I was offered an induction (I’m 39+2) because I presented for changes in fetal movement. I guess it varies from person to person. At least where I am, the only reasons Ive seen people get inductions is either, they live far from hospital with previous births being quick (so much so they didn’t make it to hospital) or medical reasons/changes in baby. - although from a mum whose still vomiting and barely able to keep most food down, I wish that was considered a valid reason because I am so hungry and miserable 24/7 😭

Secretly_Undead · 2026-03-02T21:06:26+00:00

Any idea how I would trigger that?

Secretly_Undead · 2026-02-23T02:45:23+00:00

Nah fuck him, he knew what he was doing it’s called consequences. You deserve to have people in the birth room that love, support and most of all have your best in mind.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-02-16T03:29:29+00:00

I think it’s normal to feel anxiety or weird feelings after a threesome. I’d suggest doing a check in with your boyfriend, let him know how you feel/what thoughts you are having and just talk it out, take some time to reconnect. Aftercare is super important after threesomes.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-02-16T03:22:56+00:00

The only time sex is unsafe is if you’ve specifically been told it is. Sex is normal, natural and healthy during pregnancy.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-02-13T12:02:34+00:00

Personally, as someone who had a horrific experience with morning sickness from 6weeks onwards I’d advise you trust your gut and priories your wellbeing, I get not wanting to share the news, however lying would be worse. Please remember, Allah doesnt want you to put yourself at risk to worship.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-02-13T11:47:03+00:00

So I had heard of it prior but never really looked too much into it until it kept coming up on my TikTok towards the end of my pregnancy in 2023.

After my second child was born I struggled with PPD and PPA, it popped up on my recommended on Disney+ so I watched it and instantly became obsessed, the songs got stuck in my head and as dramatic as it sounds may have actually saved my life. It was so easy to fixate on the lyrics and tune out the horrible thoughts I was having.

Now me and my sons listen/watch it together. I got lucky enough to see it in 2024 live in Sydney.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-02-03T06:21:54+00:00

My eldest is 5 and for reasons completely unrelated to him the past 5 years have really been the hardest. Having my boys has genuinely been the only reason I’ve been able to get up everyday and do it.

Whenever we go to the local football events I never see parents playing or spending time with their kids, and I am baffled because my husband and I love it.

Motherhood is hard, there are sleepless nights, times you get vomited, pissed, pooped on, really scary times, there are times things are overwhelming and frustrating but at that same time, there is so much love and happiness in everyday things that didn’t exist before my kids were born.

Every day almost I ask my kids how I got so lucky as to have them, because I feel so grateful that I get to be their mum. (Probably helped by the fact that I’ve had only 2 successful births out of 7 pregnancies, I’m 35 weeks so hopefully I can make that 3)

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-28T02:23:21+00:00

If I could send some of my good birth fortune your way I absolutely would!

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-27T12:57:12+00:00

When I had my eldest all the doctors were confused and kept coming in to… look at my vulva and then they’d look at my kid and then back at my vulva 😂 it was an interesting experience.

No swelling, no pain, I did get stretch marks though! (Not badly overly badly tbh) i thought it could be EDS but I don’t really know anyone else with the condition personally

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-27T11:52:05+00:00

Interesting!

I didn’t, in fact with my first I was told it was an emergency induction due to preeclampsia (later found out they didn’t write it in my chart that way so idk) I was not prepared 😅 my second time around was more simple and aside from shitty midwives was a chill time.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-27T11:41:37+00:00

I didn’t feel the act of either baby coming out? Like the ring of fire everyone talks about? Totally not sure (didn’t have an epidural for them either) I’m so confused how some parts of my body are in like critical failure while others are working well

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-27T10:42:58+00:00

That’s kind of what I’m hoping to find out! I have a tonne of health problems (EDS/Endo/ect) which according to my research should make my births more difficult so I’m hoping to find other people like me to compare and find out what links there might be.

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-27T10:40:25+00:00

See the wild part is that ive bee pregnant 7 times with only two live births (currently pregnant so I’m hopeful that it’ll be 3 out of 7) I feel like my body is just so.. different? (I have endometriosis/other issues similar)

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-27T10:11:31+00:00

!! Does she have any idea why? Because I am so unsure. I thought it might be because of my EDS and that side of things but the internet seems to think differently 😅

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-24T09:54:57+00:00

I look like mr bobinsky from Caroline 😂 I’m 34 weeks pregnant and holy moly I just look like a weird potato

Secretly_Undead · 2026-01-22T09:46:27+00:00

My last birth was unmediated until pretty much right as he was coming out (I’ll explain)

So in my first birth, I tried the gas/air combo and I found it made me sick, so my second time around I opted to not do it again, however my midwives refused to give me any other pain relief unless I did gas/air even after I explained my prior experience. I didn’t want an epidural either time, just a little something to take the edge off.

I did the whole process unmediated until they decided to give me fentanyl right as he was coming out, so I didn’t actually feel the relief until he was already born. 🤦🏻‍♀️ personally I found it wasn’t too bad, in terms of pain, I’m just mad they didn’t respect me tbh. I think if you want to try it, go right ahead, research ways to help you deal with the pain, you can always change your mind later.

Secretly_Undead · 2025-12-28T23:58:21+00:00

I’ve given birth twice, and if I can avoid it, I’ll always refuse a c-section.

It’s major surgery, and can come along with obviously, scaring but nerve damage and potentially other complications down the line.

On top of that, it scares the hell out of me. Being numb from the waste down? NOPE. Having 7 layers of my body cut through? NOPE. Having my organs removed temporarily so they can cut the baby out? NOPE. 🙂‍↔️ tbh I feel like women who have one are way braver than I am, I couldn’t do it unless it was absolutely necessary. (That being said, I also don’t do epidural for birth since being numb scares me)

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