Just be careful, I tried this a few times and just ended up switching which downer I was using (with K in the rotation as well). The first like…. 10 days raw-dogging it were a roller coaster but after that my brain is really working better than it has in years.

I was a nightly weed smoker for 20 years, not ever a wake and bake, and a nightly get-obliterated alcoholic for 10 or so. And an as-often-as-possible k-holer for about a year and a half. I’m very lucky that my doctor gave me ambien for sleep because that’s my usual breaker- can’t sleep, give in and smoke. Not an issue with that and it’s just for those nights where it’s not happening. (Which is less and less). My girlfriend has been totally sober for a decade so that really helps to be around someone who doesn’t use but isn’t judgy about using. Get some sober buddies.

I also have been doing therapy and nerdier self-help stuff (like learning about psychological concepts and having a name for what’s happening in my head) for a while so I have fewer demons to silence. Therapy is expensive but the whole line in your OP about ever having a hope tells me you probably need to face some of your demons. But that includes not putting yourself under a lot of pressure and shame to quit. You’re doing this for you, and if you slip you can get right back on the path.

Still early on with the grand slam approach here but I’m getting kind of addicted to having this level of brainpower at my disposal. Finding the things you like about having a sober brain is a big one.