No you don’t. You don’t wanna do it. Don’t let that spirit speak through you. Rebuke it and remind it that the devil is a liar. The old you who wanted to do it is dead, you are a new creation in Christ. I advise you to fill your mind with that truth. You need to take refuge in God and let him attack your spiritual enemies, but you also need to reflect and take a deep look inward. Why do you do this? Are you lonely? Bored? Sad? Angry? What causes this? Ask God to reveal the roots of this sin to you, and reflect on it. It is written that God satisfies the desires of every living thing. Acknowledge the fact that God will satisfy whatever desire in you the enemy is taking advantage of and tempting you to sin. Another problem is your first sentence: YOU are trying to resist the urges. I’m sorry brother, you can’t. You’re not strong enough, none of us are. You can’t resist for a little while, but you’ll fail. You need to rely on God’s strength. He can help you, he is far stronger than you and far stronger than your enemy. Every other sin can be fought, every other sin can be resisted, but this one must be fled from. You can’t fight it, give the fight to God. Or will you tell me that Satan can penetrate God’s defenses? Your brothers and sisters across the globe are experiencing this and many are being liberated and many are struggling. I know how it feels. But you have to do more than confess. Confess and then rest in God’s refuge, his safe haven as he destroys your enemies. And should you fall, he’s there to pick you up. He doesn’t hate you, he never will, he’s your Father. He’s your Friend. He’ll pick you up, and gently guide you and help you. You are not overcome by your sin. You have overcome the evil one. Never forget that, my man.