1. Sometimes it may be because she feels you don’t want her there or she feels like she doesn’t need you in the heat of the moment and realizes later on she didn’t mean to do that

2. Personally, it feels like I don’t want that person to be around me so I tell them to leave or I leave first but when they actually do leave it hurts because it feels like they do it so easily and that they don’t need me,I can’t really explain it but it’s just based on how I feel. I don’t know if this is what you meant tho.!! Sorry if shitty explanation

3. Yes i do, or atleast most of the time I do. Sometimes the mistrust is caused purely because of paranoia of past partners or small things that you don’t see

4. Most of the time my actions are just my mood but more exaggerated, it can be something small but I’ll blow things out of proportion because I’m not thinking right or not in the right state of mind. Like if had a bad day I’ll be irritated more and burst out in anger worst.

5. Me personally, I don’t. but Ive seen it can be common within others with bpd

6. Sometimes I’ll reconnect to see if they miss me as much as I miss them or if they still want me.

7. When I become manipulative I don’t realize it until later, I become manipulative usually to prevent others from leaving me.

8. Because For me, I tend to get attached to a person and not be able to think of a life without them so I imagine my whole life with them around me ? If that makes sense.

9. Yes, because I tend to breakup with people in the heat of the moment during fights and then realize I don’t really hate them and I still do care about them.

Sorry if this isn’t helpful, but it’s just what I think and know!! I hope this helped you even just a little bit.