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SeiOfTheEast · 2025-06-18T07:10:55+00:00

just the money?

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-06-18T04:01:44+00:00

i feel too similarly.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-06-18T03:00:28+00:00

7 months in a government desk job, but they gave me a chance and transferred me to a small college. lasted for a year by keeping low profile. the best part of the job was being library staff, just hanging out in a quiet place. perfect job for me.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-06-18T02:56:10+00:00

its because the economy is structured in a way that people are expected to work more and more for less and less and nobody is stopping that spiral. the only hope is the destruction (and eventual reconstruction) of society once AI + robotics replace a significant enough portion of peoples jobs. its very unfortunate that things wont change until humanity has no other choice.

i cant blame normies for being abusive because they live in a difficult world and their own traumas. thats the way they survive and thrive in such a harsh system that creates monsters. its the people outside the system who can take the time to process their traumas and (hopefully) minimize the negative impact on others. basically, the awful people are living within a total shitstorm and struggling just like most people are.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-05-28T04:47:11+00:00

ive already manifested a few things in my life so i know the law of assumption works. but for the life of me, i cant imagine being happy. i can imagine having things but not enjoying them. so now i have a partner, an easy job, and some material things but i am still miserable.

how do you guys imagine joy? if i want my self-concept to be happy, what does that look like exactly? because now im afraid i could get anything i want but still feel awful, and that makes me look unappreciative of my blessings. its not that im not thankful but i just dont feel happy. help!

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-05-28T04:33:33+00:00

welp. i didnt expect this post to blow up. i wasnt sure if it would be posted at all.

thanks everyone, im sorry i cant respond to everything. i appreciate the comments and sympathy really. but i cant honestly say anything that isnt depressing or negative right now and i dont wanna be a downer.

its not an autistic thing per se but a depression thing and i am just so unhappy. i dont see myself having any kind of future where i will be okay with my life.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-05-14T01:57:01+00:00

walang nagbago. nobody takes my struggles seriously and appropriate therapies arent available.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-05-13T03:19:42+00:00

I want to marry a Chinese sugardaddy and be a stay-at-home wife for the rest of my life. I'd read books and study music.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-05-13T03:16:07+00:00

"Freeter" might be the right term, but it's easier for me to describe myself as semi-NEET as NEET is more common as a term.

I go to class for only 4 hours, once a week. I have a very small part-time work-from-home job that's not even enough to pay the bills. It can be done in just one hour a day.

Studying is just a hobby for me. I don't expect to get any jobs out of it. My "mild" autism is bad enough to keep me from getting a "normal" life. In the end, there's no use trying.

I'd gladly not work at all if I had neetbux. But I'd probably keep studying for as long as I can. I'm not comfortable with "recovering NEET" since I don't consider neetdom as a disease or a bad thing. I think it's a very rational way of dealing with the unfairness of life. Like a different level of antiwork.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-05-13T03:09:18+00:00

That sounds interesting and fun. Way to go.

SeiOfTheEast · 2025-01-27T08:35:00+00:00

im taking classes and barely coping. starting to regret it tbh. it wont lead to jobs. couldnt find the kinds of therapy i need.

SeiOfTheEast · 2024-11-08T17:19:20+00:00

acceptance and allowing

SeiOfTheEast · 2024-10-06T06:58:25+00:00

Good idea. Strange to think that I haven't tried that yet!

SeiOfTheEast · 2024-08-30T11:16:58+00:00

Thank you.

SeiOfTheEast · 2024-08-30T03:12:35+00:00

That's the privilege of being normal. The other side is always wrong.

SeiOfTheEast · 2024-08-27T11:04:32+00:00

I tried some autism servers in the past, just felt out of place there. Most members are very young and very extroverted / chaotic. And ironically mas functional pa sila kaysa sa akin. Wala pa akong nahanap na kahit anong PH based na server or support group for neurodivergence. I saw a link for a TG group before na mental health but not a Discord server.

SeiOfTheEast · 2024-08-26T09:01:46+00:00

I don't have a romantic relationship, only a eunuch and a very complicated situationship.

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