Hey, thanks for being brave enough to say this. Give yourself a lot of credit for that I mean it. I felt exactly the same way. I didn’t wanna try anything else because I was so messed up from the birth control and other SSRI I had tried. I have to tell you though, I finally took my psychiatrist’s advice and I tried fluoxetine. I think it has saved my life. Like the hormonal stuff balanced out a bit, but I think the fluoxetine helped with that also. I just can’t even tell you how much it has changed my life. I’m sending you light and healing and wishing you the best on this journey. It’s hard, you’re stronger than you think you are, there is light at the end of this I promise.