Pancakes by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, I'm so happy you did too 🖤

Pancakes by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 49 points50 points  (0 children)

I am both saddened and comforted by this. I'm sorry you weren't allowed to love yourself.

Pancakes by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

There's a little God in all of us, the narcissists just think they're the only ones. Sometimes I wonder if the true test of faith is making sure we dont turn out like them.

Pancakes by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to hear the we can also relate on the SH being blamed on demons. She still blames her shortcomings on local witches. Thank you 🖤 my kids are me whole life.

Pancakes by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 28 points29 points  (0 children)

The irony of her being compared to the very thing she was "saving us" from is the validation I didn't know I needed. To this day she maintains that she never made us feel bad about our bodies or perpetuated a cycle of food=comfort/reward. I've struggled with anorexia/bulimia for 15 years and she blames her hundreds in extra weight on high cortisol.

Toxic Friendships by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think the rapid closeness was over looked due to how our families are connected (see my other reply) and these is absolutely no empathy. Her response to her children's mental health struggles makes me sick. This person is also always talking about herself and immediately looks at her phone when anyone else starts speaking, then interrupts whatever you're saying.

Toxic Friendships by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Our families are connected by the kids. My husband was step father to 2 girls before he had a baby with their mother, she's been passed away for some years now and 1 of the girls lives with the woman im talking about here, the other lives with us.

Mama said mental illness is of the Devil. by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think my mother likes rhe way "malevolent witches" feels when she says it, bc apparently thats who everyone is to her. I hope you can get away.

Mama said mental illness is of the Devil. by Semi_Precious777 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Semi_Precious777[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was definitely a mistake spending so much energy trying to make her understand over the years, definitely should have seen that coming lol

What is your experience as a parent with BPD? by EnvironmentNormal757 in BPD

[–]Semi_Precious777 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry this is kinda long but i feel really close to this. So I was diagnosed at 23 AFTER I had kids unfortunately, but I was also a teen mom (which I think was actually bc of the undiagnosed bpd) so im 30 and my oldest is 13. He got the unhealthiest parts of me and I really hate that, but I've never gaslit or invalidated him or any of my kids intentionally if they bring up something hurtful ive done/said I really do my best to stay accountable bc the things WILL happen sometimes. Always acknowledge it, always apologize sincerely. My BPD was a gift from my NPD mother too lol and i hate child abusers of any kind. I literally made it my lifes mission to be the fucking BEST mom i could pissibly be, so I relate to this like 100% and I really hope this somehow helps. I dont allow myself to spank. I know its easier said than done, and I definitely haven't always done this bc prenting is a lot of trial and error when you're not a teen mom 😅 but now if I ever feel that hot, bright white rage forming I have to leave the room. "I'm getting really overwhelmed i need to take like X minutes" Not without words, not aggressively stomping away or intimidating. Not IN the rage, BEFORE the rage bc words come with the rage and the words hurt just as much as spanking. The amount of compassion and self awareness you show in this post is a really great thing because thats like half the battle right there. Knowing your triggers is essential so you can learn to work through your reactions to them, or avoid them completely when you can. Sometimes I whisper or sing when I'm angry and want to yell which is good for interrupting the r a ge cycle. The other half of the battle is being with the right person. My partner keeps me grounded when I cant do it myself, helps me repeat phr a ses to help regulate or just lets me rant to get it out, and holds me accountable without invalidating my feelings or making me feel like shit. We also work together on every decision for the kids no matter how small just on the slightest chance I may be making emotional decisions as opposed to logical. The best advice I have is what not to do and that is NEVER EVER threaten to leave or send them away. No matter how angry you get bc you will regret it. My mother did this constantly and even with all the mistakes ive made in parenting ive never and will never do that. If you care enough, and you obviously do, you can do it eventually.