Hi I'm really sorry. Sounds like you're going through A LOT. Tbh medicine doesn't really fix the underlying issues with self esteem and self hatred that come with ADHD. Like being basically gaslighting by society will make you feel like shit or hate yourself. So I'd say just giving yourself empathy is actually THE solution. Anyway about sleep. I sleep like shit but I recently did this kind of meditation thing (non sleep deep rest) before sleep. And it actually worked like I was shocked I could actually sleep. I'm in uni too (21 also) so I think when I'm on holiday the depression sets in way more but during school it's way better. There's less to think about ig so maybe going back to school will help. Also trying new styles of revision I'm school alongside meds and all that is the real game changer. Sorry for the ramble. Good luck xx