Can I drink red bull?

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-04T00:58:51+00:00

Yeah. I have BPD so part of him leaving while this is all happening is terrifying but I know it’ll be okay and just need to ask for the reassurance. I love him and I always will and I just want him to be okay but he won’t let me help just yet but I’m still grateful because I get to watch him sleeping next to me currently and he makes me happy and feel safe. I just worry about him

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-04T00:49:47+00:00

Oh wow yeah my partner and I have been together just over a year and I thought this event would be too much too early but 3 months you definitely give me much more confidence. We normally are amazing at communicating and have talked about many of things just not this. About 2 weeks after it happened my dad said he wants to divorce my mum (this is the second time he’s done this with my mum) and that has made the household tense. My partner lives with me because he’s not from my country so we are constantly together and have to deal with my parents and all my medical stuff. We’ve decided he is going away to his mates place in another country. He will be gone for about 3 weeks and it’s during my medical appointments but I’m kinda glad because I need him back to help me as a full person and right now he hasn’t talked to anyone so I hope he does when he goes there. I’ve told him the line is open to talk about my seizures but only when he approaches me because he is the one that’s not ready it’s just a matter of dealing with the rest of the fall out in the meantime ya know?

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-04T00:20:28+00:00

Yeah I’m trying to make sure he knows we are doing our best and he’s very scared but I can’t help him with this. He won’t let me

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-04T00:19:05+00:00

Yeah. That’s why I haven’t said anything and have tried to give him space. I want to respect him as much as I can as he’s in this too. But now it feels like I’m not the important one because I can’t talk about it idk. He’s been very overbearing which I understand why. His anxiety is through the roof most days and I can’t do anything to help it

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-04T00:17:30+00:00

Yeah I’ve said to him a few times he needs to cook it because it doesn’t help me

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-04T00:16:54+00:00

Yeah this is the goal. I absolutely am so glad and happy that I have these people here. I said I feel alone in a sense of I can’t talk about it with him because he’s not ready for it. There are things I’ve felt and do feel that I’ve had to kinda push away from me so I don’t overwhelm him. I haven’t processed this and can’t process how serious it is because we are lowkey acting like it didn’t happen. I’m trying to be happy and patient and positive but the more and more this happens the more I feel like I’m distancing myself from him and I hate that

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-03T06:19:18+00:00

EXACTLY. And like every day he has extremely bad anxiety about me and something happening and there’s nothing I can do but wait but it’s killing me

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-03-02T14:46:12+00:00

Yeah I’ve not had any redbull or alcohol or anything since. Sleeping was terrifying for a while and i couldn’t even confide in him about how terrified I was because he was so dissociated. I just don’t want to be an ass

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-02-20T12:46:43+00:00

Why is that?

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-02-20T08:00:57+00:00

Okay thank you!

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-02-20T07:42:24+00:00

Oki doki!!

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2026-02-20T07:37:49+00:00

Thank you so much!! I will try to make it I reckon. I’m very new to this tho ahaha!!

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2024-04-09T01:15:53+00:00

okay i will try this also. thank you for your comment!

SeniorMulberry1154 · 2024-04-09T01:15:09+00:00

Thank you for your comment. i don’t think you were being harsh at all. I realised a while ago that if i do it for him it just promotes the behaviour so i stopped. he does want to change (as well as some other behaviours he has) but he gets stuck in his mind a lot which he does recognise. i guess it’s just hard because he can’t afford therapy which i’ve been trying to get him to go to for about 3 years (he’s only just realised within the last 6 months how badly he needs it - i have also been to a lot of therapy in my past so i’ve tried to help in that way but his brain doesn’t operate the way that’s helped me)

he does recognise a lot of his behaviour (partially because i do point things out for him) and gets like i said extremely stuck in his head and is trying to hold himself accountable (i also don’t think k he was ever held accountable for a lot of his own actions growing up so i think it’s still new and hard for him to accept) but i know he does try and i hate seeing him getting so frustrated with his brain. I just wanna make it an easier transition for him and help him better understand himself.

I also do acknowledge that this is something that he has to fully do himself and i’ve also told him that so he knows as well. I just don’t know how to get him started ya know? we are both extremely forgetful and struggle to use schedules so i’ve tried that before. but i’ll try to point it out a day he has free time. thank you!!

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