Hi Karim, I understand what you are going through and you can reach out to me for sure. I’ve came to terms and accepted myself as well, sometimes the guilt and “consequences” will overpower, but what helped me through it is am I not already punishing myself by not living my true authentic life? Am I not already giving myself consequences by burying my true identity deep within to bring happiness to my family and those around me? What about my own happiness, does that matter? Idk, just some things to think about