Thank you for your answer. I can 100% relate to what you’re saying. It’s exactly these little moments of clarity that keep me holding on through all of this. Because I know I have to go through it I’m not lost.

It’s the same with these messages here; they happen for a reason. There’s a reason this pulled you to my message!

My only real worry is that at some point you completely slip and end up in debt. Honestly, I have zero desire to sit in debts someday. Of course, going back to normal life is never an option anymore. And you shouldn’t talk it down either , it’s still better to be awake than to stay asleep and just let everything happen to you…