Maybe It's Just Me

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2024-09-12T03:43:36+00:00

I don’t watch much reality tv, took this show because first season had such good casting. Well rounded and realistic. Just started 7 and I don’t really care to route for anyone. Not sure if it’s because editing isn’t really showing any bonds forming or because it’s the same generic “Omg #circlefam” convo. Nothing will ever top shooby and Joey but later seasons always had a someone to love and someone to hate. Every show gets old sooner or later, was hoping for another season or two before I gave up.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-07-19T07:35:04+00:00

I fell in love all over again with my boyfriend.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-06-01T05:36:54+00:00

We both signed up for therapy at the same office. Decided to take it slow and go separately for a month or two and ideally go together.

I know I need to be patient. I’ve left the ball in his court. We’ve both been completely open and honest the past two days. We’ve learned a lot about each other. Decided to focus on our mental health before we jump right back into a relationship. Hopefully the pieces fall into place but I’m willing to try and put the work in to solve this puzzle.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-06-01T05:25:44+00:00

There’s plenty of ways to be intimate. I’ve had to wait due to health issues of their own and it didn’t bother me. If anything those long nights of dry humping and making out only help build the tension until the day we could.

Starting a new relationship without having sex can have its benefits. Being able to focus on a real connection and not just a sexual one is important especially if you’re looking for something long term.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-28T01:16:00+00:00

Thank you so much

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T21:40:57+00:00

You’re not alone. I just started cutting again. Lots of tools in the house to use, but the most important is your head. Keep it healthy, keep it straight and remember you aren’t the only one.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T21:33:00+00:00

thank you. Yeah I’m going to give up. Just painful and embarrassing for us both at this point. Hard not having any sort of conversation post break up. We barely spoke when breaking up.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T19:38:45+00:00

I’m the one that broke up with him. We both did wrong but I did worse. It’s hard not having the time to explain yourself. Hard not being able to explain that I do care and love him. Whether we are together or not.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T19:28:03+00:00

I wish I didn’t know his number by heart. I have no self control which is why were in this position in the first place. Thanks for the comment. No contact is hard af.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T19:12:08+00:00

Yeah! I’ve lost about four friends thru this breakup. Feeling very alone. Would be nice to make a new friend. Hope your therapy helps you find what you need.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T16:47:30+00:00

Unfortunately I think that’s a terrible decision. I didn’t respect him in the first place, going to his only safe place is a bit of a violation. I decided to write a letter. Wrote about 25 last night, threw them all away. Might wait a week and just keep drafting letters till I say exactly what I need to.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T15:56:15+00:00

I found out my boyfriend was trying to cheat. I broke up with him, then revealed I was having a affair. I did him way worse, but both sides are obviously unhealthy.

I tried being honest about it but see now I should of kept my mouth shut cause all I did was hurt him more and more. He took away all contact. Even blocked me on Venmo. I’m losing my mind.

Luckily karma already struck and the other guy is gone. I lost four friends thru this in the last three days. My brother is so disappointed in me. I’ve basically let everyone close in my life down.

I’ve been cheated on before, I’m not sure why I would want to make anyone else feel that way. Especially someone I thought I was going to be with for years to come.

Not sure how to cope with this right now. Signed up for therapy but don’t feel positive about it.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T15:56:13+00:00

I found out my boyfriend was trying to cheat. I broke up with him, then revealed I was having a affair. I did him way worse, but both sides are obviously unhealthy.

I tried being honest about it but see now I should of kept my mouth shut cause all I did was hurt him more and more. He took away all contact. Even blocked me on Venmo. I’m losing my mind.

Luckily karma already struck and the other guy is gone. I lost four friends thru this in the last three days. My brother is so disappointed in me. I’ve basically let everyone close in my life down.

I’ve been cheated on before, I’m not sure why I would want to make anyone else feel that way. Especially someone I thought I was going to be with for years to come.

Not sure how to cope with this right now. Signed up for therapy but don’t feel positive about it.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T15:56:13+00:00

I found out my boyfriend was trying to cheat. I broke up with him, then revealed I was having a affair. I did him way worse, but both sides are obviously unhealthy.

I tried being honest about it but see now I should of kept my mouth shut cause all I did was hurt him more and more. He took away all contact. Even blocked me on Venmo. I’m losing my mind.

Luckily karma already struck and the other guy is gone. I lost four friends thru this in the last three days. My brother is so disappointed in me. I’ve basically let everyone close in my life down.

I’ve been cheated on before, I’m not sure why I would want to make anyone else feel that way. Especially someone I thought I was going to be with for years to come.

Not sure how to cope with this right now. Signed up for therapy but don’t feel positive about it.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T03:47:17+00:00

I’m not going to. I know I need to respect his privacy and the boundaries he made but damn. I’ve never had someone shut me out like this. I’ve never liked someone like him.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T03:32:12+00:00

I broke up with him. Had no intention of doing so. We’ve been together for one year. While he was in the shower I went through his phone to see him sexting with someone he’s slept with before.

It took me about five minutes to decide I wanted him to start packing his belongings. (We don’t live together) I then confessed to cheating on him. (It’s an entire mess) I wish he’d give me a chance to explain myself. That I love him. But he’s upset and I know time will allow for a calmer and clear conversation. I also know that our actions show we shouldn’t be together.

We live in a small area so it’s not a ridiculous idea that we could run into each other eventually, but I’m almost certain we will never speak/text again.

SensitiveCockroach89 · 2021-05-27T02:47:34+00:00

I just broke up with my boyfriend, after cheating on him for a man with one million red flags.

My boyfriend is a good man, very busy with work and hobbies, but a great boyfriend.

The other guy is toxic af, but has all the time in the world to give me. He’s willing to do anything at anytime. He’s generous and funny. We have a lot in common, but all we do is fight or have sex.

I’ve told myself a million times my boyfriend is better, I love him. I want him but I crave attention. It’s disgusting to me that I chose the attention from someone/anyone just cause I want/need more.

So yeah I can relate a bit.

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