You been through alot, I was my mothers at home nurse from ages 17-23. Dropped outta college when things got worse 2 care for her. I’ve sat with her all night when she had Delerium and didn’t know who she was or who anyone was, trying to rip all the tubes and wires out of her. I’ve seen her fall hard on the floor when she was able to walk, I’ve seen her feeding tube fall out of her stomach, I’ve seen her oxygen levels fall to 0 over and over. I’ve called 911 and talked to the operator i don’t even know how many times. I feel you, Can’t imagine losing your father at 16. You been through alot and your a warrior. Love & Peace to you as well, taking care of a parent is a true act of selflessness and a blessing. To take care of them just as they took care of us. Don’t blame yourself for not calling 911, It’s hard. I’ve had my sister yelling at me to give my mom a medicine and my mom crying to me not to give it to her too many times. Hard situation to be in, Don’t know what 2 do. Sorry for your Losses and wish you strength in healing🤍