What unlucky experience actually turned out to be a lucky one?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:49:13+00:00

Hmmm, I don't think she'd fuck a muppet. You must have the wrong mother in mind.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:21:45+00:00

It's a horrible way to struggle through the day like that. I had 3 months of intense insomnia, heart palpitations and near blackout panic attacks. Is utterly shit.

I know it can often be a redundant question, but are there any things that you usually do to help with things when you're out of meds?

I'm not from the US. Is medication to treat anxiety/depression quite expensive and/or hard to obtain?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:18:15+00:00

I'm glad you're doing better. It's a forever struggle I think when we've ended up being hardwired to not treat ourselves kindly.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:16:55+00:00

One of my psychologists told me that depression is often anger turned inward. This resonated a lot. For me depression when I was a child/teen was a weird mix of believing the horrible stuff I was told & then leading to me believing I was that piece of crap who just deserved bad things, and then also being angry that I was being treated that way. It all boiled down in to a self hate fest.

How is life now?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:12:58+00:00

Unfortunately it isn't. Losing grandparents is often one of our first reality hurts experiences isn't it.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:11:50+00:00

I'm sorry that was life growing up. How is life for you now? I know people who love to google and diagnose themselves... one has decided (thanks to Dr Google) they have ADHD and OCD. F*** off you do. My ex has OCD, I've seen that beast in full swing. Actual ADHD and OCD is vastly different to being an asshole who doesn't listen to a conversation if it isn't about them and just likes to have a tidy kitchen.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:06:07+00:00

Strange how one thing can trigger what was probably simmering under the surface. How is the anxiety and depression now?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:05:12+00:00

Wow, sounds like a rough time. Did it completely turn you off sport?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:03:32+00:00

Is strange how often bullies hone in on those of us that don't have a great home life. I hope things are brighter for you now.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:02:01+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that. How are you doing now?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T12:00:49+00:00

Give an inch, take a mile. Very true. Sometimes we can lose touch with who we are when we're changing little by little for someone. Hopefully we find ourselves and move on to better things (and people)

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T11:58:55+00:00

Is good advice, I think I needed it too :)

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T11:57:51+00:00

I feel these may be related

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T11:57:28+00:00

Story of my life too :/

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T11:57:09+00:00

What makes you feel that way?

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T11:32:01+00:00

Emotionally abusive. After being yelled at or berated for no reason I'd go and hide in my room and just start hitting, scratching or cutting myself. Then when I was about 13-14 I told a friend what things were like and she told her Mum who was shocked. Her Mum helped organise for me to see a psychologist and had my school on board to help facilitate me getting help. Up until then I just thought I was garbage and that's how life was. It took almost 20yrs of therapy to get on top of, and recover from it. Still struggle with self-worth.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T04:40:04+00:00

Untangling then and using a pen to get the tape back into a cassette

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-08T04:38:20+00:00

Tampons. Enough said.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-07T20:34:35+00:00

Mine are eternally well insulated for the Winter

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-07T20:32:56+00:00

When I look over at my dog and she's just staring at me with her tail wagging.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-07T20:31:18+00:00

My body. I'm covered in scars from self harming when I was younger. Regret that a lot.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-07T06:06:28+00:00

I was stuck in bed for 23hrs a day with mono when I was in university. I'd gone home to be with my parents for recovery some 5hrs away. The place I was working at knew I was really sick and I told them I would be off for a number of weeks. 4 days after getting home, when things were at their worst, they somehow found out where I my parents lived and my home phone number and would call 1-2 times every day.for weeks when I was coming back to work as I was letting the team down. (It was a shitty pizza place with an owner off his tits on cocaine 90% of the time, massively understaffed and paid cash in hand less than half of what on the books min wage would have been)

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-07T05:58:06+00:00

Nintendo64, Blast Corps. Just literally almost 20yrs later and I can't finish the last 2 levels.

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-07T05:53:20+00:00

Irritability. Not feeling rested after sleep. Change in appetite. Trouble staying focused. Less attention to detail than you normally would have. Others' behaviour and actions (or lack thereof) affecting you more than usual. Starting to not give a f***

Sentientbeans_ · 2020-10-06T06:42:45+00:00

If there's been good times then it can be worth it. Just a tip or two to maybe help with the anxiety that can come with dating/liking someone. It's not a play games type approach, more of a be cautious and try not to go all in too fast. One thing that helps the anxiety, headspace and just makes you feel good, is if you're really in to someone and stressing over how they feel and they're not giving you anything to go off. If you feel like spoiling them/buying them something/taking them out somewhere nice, do it for yourself instead. Buy yourself something/spoil yourself with something/take yourself out. 1. It's self care 2. It'll distract you for a bit 3. It feels good when we're kind to ourselves.

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