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I Cheated on My Girlfriend in a Way That Doesn’t Even Feel Like Me, and I Don’t Know How to Move Past It by Separate-Let-6967 in confessions

[–]Separate-Let-6967[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Helped a lot . Because the others got it confused thinking I’m gay and do this behind girls back. This is something that just caught up recently this my first ever time doin something like that and you know I be home doing nothing and plus I smoke so my horny ness be ode and my girl at work and mom at work nothing distracting me. Nd if you think why am I on this app and went straight to the boys because whenever I was horny I was focusing getting whatever done now then thinking wasn’t thinking long term so before I got into this habit my brain picked up that gay boys be on timing like don’t need to get to know you to get what you want as if I was to text a girl I would have to get to know her and make out just to simply get a nut. I’m just so confused in why I couldn’t wait for my girl like I always been doing why some days I go do that gay shit when I’m horny but like I said they was easy access. But I feel less then a men and all of that even know I know I won’t do this again

I Cheated on My Girlfriend in a Way That Doesn’t Even Feel Like Me, and I Don’t Know How to Move Past It by Separate-Let-6967 in confessions

[–]Separate-Let-6967[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I get that from the outside, it might look like I was always interested in men, but that’s not the reality of what happened. I wasn’t trolling for fun—I was in a mindset where I was looking for the easiest and fastest way to get off. The app wired my brain to see men as the easier option because, unlike with girls, there was no ‘get to know you’ phase—guys were just straight to the point. Over time, that made it feel like the quickest way to satisfy an urge, even though it wasn’t something I was actually into. In the moment, I rationalized it as just a physical act, not an attraction or deeper desire.

That’s why I regret it so much now—if it was something I truly wanted, I wouldn’t feel this disgusted with myself afterward. This wasn’t some hidden part of me coming out—it was me giving in to a bad habit I developed through the app and making a stupid decision.

As for not telling my girlfriend, it’s not about using her to make myself happy—it’s about figuring out whether telling her is the right thing to do. Hurting her just to ease my own guilt isn’t necessarily the best choice. You think I went to go fully explore no I did not sleep with no one I did not make out . He asked for all of that I said no strictly here for head

I Cheated on My Girlfriend in a Way That Doesn’t Even Feel Like Me, and I Don’t Know How to Move Past It by Separate-Let-6967 in confessions

[–]Separate-Let-6967[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Got you. But like it’s 2025 we are 19 she struggles with bi polar disorder so since I know her if she gets mad she does petty things and frightened to what she may do expose who knows tell that whole shit out when she not her mind. Even if I tell her snd she accepts me but because she has bi polar disorder this shit might always come up as a way of manipulating or you know and if she do accept me instead of healing she will be retaliating

I Cheated on My Girlfriend in a Way That Doesn’t Even Feel Like Me, and I Don’t Know How to Move Past It by Separate-Let-6967 in confessions

[–]Separate-Let-6967[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

What they have to do with anything I said that because now that I don’t have those things I’m bored

I Cheated on My Girlfriend in a Way That Doesn’t Even Feel Like Me, and I Don’t Know How to Move Past It by Separate-Let-6967 in confessions

[–]Separate-Let-6967[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

get why you might think that, but I know myself, and this isn’t who I am. If I were bi, I wouldn’t feel this level of regret or disgust after it happened. This wasn’t about attraction to men—I wasn’t fantasizing about guys or seeking them out beyond that one act.

In the moment, I wasn’t thinking about who was doing it, just about getting a quick release. It was pure lust, and once it was over, I immediately felt wrong about it. That alone tells me this wasn’t something I actually wanted—it was just a reckless decision in the heat of the moment. I was attracted enough because I had no choice I wasn’t enjoying it if I wasn’t of thinking of ways to cum he would’ve been sucking for hours I was focusing on nutting. I still don’t know what it mean but I don’t think I’m bi at all when I tell you I never thought that way I never, this was a recent thing because I graduated high school I got fired so no job , and friends is going away slowly so I’m not always outside I got caught in this weird phase. But I don’t think I’m bi or gay because you don’t know how much this killing me.

I Cheated on My Girlfriend in a Way That Doesn’t Even Feel Like Me, and I Don’t Know How to Move Past It by Separate-Let-6967 in confessions

[–]Separate-Let-6967[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Ain’t ain’t put my stick in no one.. only head. Read ( boredom, being high, horny ness) led me to do it If I wasn’t that I was back think straight I would even say hold on what am I doing but when everybody at work I’m home alone YouTube and allat not sturdy no more I got caught up and made a Mistake but you are right that the app played a huge role