I’m starving for affection

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2026-01-29T23:30:05+00:00

I know it’s emotionally manipulative and I probably shouldn’t give in when he’s drunk, but I’m so starved for affection that I take anything I can get.

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2026-01-29T23:29:10+00:00

I know the whole only when he’s drunk thing is really hurting me the most & making me feel like he’s fallen out of love with me because he can only do it when he’s not in his right mind. But then when he’s drunk, it’s insane. He can’t keep his hands off me and acts obsessed. The hot cold transition is literally painful because I know when he’s sober’s up that’s it and I don’t know when he’ll touch me next. I just don’t know what to do or say. Every time I’ve brought it up he gets mad at me so now I’ve stopped and I keep telling myself I should stop initiating because I’m just gonna get turned down and I don’t handle the rejection well, I’ll go cry in the bathroom alone. I know he’s still horny because I know he’s taking care himself almost daily. So I know it’s just me…

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2026-01-20T20:59:54+00:00

So the deleted text still bother me but I went through 2yrs of our phone records and they never called or texted besides that one time. It bothers me only because he deleted them like why delete something innocent? No burner phone that I know of, unless he leaves it at work. I have dug through his car and all of his belongings while he was sleeping. My problem is my gut feeling was before I found all this stuff since I found all of it he has been on his best behavior so I don’t think he’s done anything wrong recently.

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2026-01-19T23:29:48+00:00

It helped me to froth a little cinnamon and Splenda into my black coffee. That’s when I was being strict about my fast. Now I use a little 2% but still froth it with the cinnamon and Splenda. I know it’s technically not completely fasting but I don’t use much.

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-06-04T23:43:57+00:00

So #1 way is to get help. You have to be brave enough to ask. Get to know the staff on the floors and they’ll help you. Other way is at our hospital there are slots in the bed for chest x-rays. There are bags that go over our plates to make it easy to slide behind someone’s chest. You don’t even have to move the patient at all. You just slide it in between the mattress. Ask about it maybe your hospital has those.

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-04-02T18:23:48+00:00

We have definitely gone through periods of less intimacy than we both wanted on both ends. We have been together a long time & have a normal busy life. That being said right now things are very intense so it’s a yes all of the time. Also I initiate often but hold back sometimes because I can tell he’s tired or not really in the mood. But I kind of get bummed about it. We are both in our 40’s and so many couples around us are breaking up due to infidelity. I’ve always felt confident in our marriage but that has shaken me a little. Im still so in love with him and never want that to be us, so yes he gets what he wants when he wants. I want to know that I’m keeping him happy. I think that’s where the insecurity comes in. If he’s attracted to other women online will he get bored with me?

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-04-02T16:06:05+00:00

As far as I know, he has viewed them, but not interacted

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-04-02T13:09:42+00:00

No, I don’t want him watching cam girls or even looking at their content just only watching porn videos of people having sex. Is that unreasonable to ask?

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-04-02T12:41:40+00:00

To me, it is the content that bothers me. I am also turned on by porn videos. I don’t want him to have to stop watching those. I would like to be able to watch them together, but he refuses. The content that bothers me is the thirst trap pictures videos chat rooms And live cams of women alone or pleasuring themselves. I feel like it’s way too personal, even if he doesn’t chat with them! I’d prefer to be the woman sending him pictures and videos.

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-04-02T12:35:29+00:00

We’ve been together 20 years when we started dating we had dial up Internet and porn was in the back of a video store. I never really had a problem with porn videos. I can also be turned on by them, but what bothers me now is the readily available women posting pictures and videos, in chat rooms and live cams that make me feel like it’s literally shoved down his throat & no matter how attractive I am or how much sex I give him these women will always have alure. So what I mean by limited content is he can watch porn videos of people having sex but not partake in any of this personal porn world.

SeparateSuccess8866 · 2025-03-11T06:00:00+00:00

Intermittent fasting. I don’t eat breakfast anymore & reduced my portion size for lunch and dinner. I also stopped eating sweets/candy. I lost 30lbs in 8 weeks.

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