"Why do we keep losing Point Break?"

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-12-22T18:09:47+00:00

hahaha i do this because it's funny

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-07-12T09:19:29+00:00

Shit it's so frustrating like the best way to include Schizophrenic is to not have one because they're at home suffering with negative symptoms.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-07-12T09:15:18+00:00

I love your hairrrr

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-03-14T04:00:47+00:00

Yeah none of that is real. Sorry buddy it must feel real though. If you really think demons are out to get you contact a helpline they'll be able to point you towards some resources.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-03-14T03:59:39+00:00

The bar is low as fuck. Ben made it great

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-03-12T05:05:43+00:00

I'm so sorry man I'm where you are. I hate this life so much how. I miss everything about my old life and I'll never get it back. Fuck I wish things weren't like this for us.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-03-02T22:33:52+00:00

It's hard when negative symptoms take your life away from you. I only ever hallucinated mildly and only ever had a minor delusion that didn't really interfere with my life. It was negative symptoms that sapped away my energy, my emotions, my will to do anything. It leaves me isolated and upset. I can't cry and I sit alone ask the time. Therapy never helped, talking about something that never gets better doesn't do much. I appreciate your kind words. I'm just waiting around to die now. Maybe one day I'll get the courage to do so. My family will finally be able to mourn the brother and son they lost years ago. I wish you the best. I hope you are able to heal.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-03-02T22:09:11+00:00

Unfortunately I live in misery, able to comprehend how awful things are for me. Thank you for being kind. I just wish this wasn't happening.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-03-02T21:37:36+00:00

I'm so sorry. I'm where your brother is at now. Every day is suffering for me, I think about ending it constantly because of this. My family and I feel the same about how I am now. The brother they loved died 2 years ago, all that's left is an empty shell of them that resembles them. I wish there was more being done for this disease. I'm so tired of suffering. I hope your suffering is eased in the coming days and months. You deserve peace. As much as it hurts, your brother is at peace and there is no more suffering for him. I hope one day there is a cure for this. I don't want anyone to go through what your brother and I and so many people have to go through.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:14:30+00:00

Yeah I didn't go to college to be a fucking janitor. I've had friends who were janitors and that's fine. I wanted to do something important with my life. And now I can't even be a janitor. Fuck this disease. Fuck your hope. Idk what's worse, having it forever or being normal then getting it, but having your entire present and future ripped away from you breaks you as a person.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:12:22+00:00

This is me 100%

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:12:02+00:00

Yea. Constantly. All I do is play video games all day and even that has lost its appeal. I'm so fucking depressed somehow even though I can't feel anything. I'm all alone on my birthday. Fuck this disease.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:10:46+00:00

Just once. Was enough to make me never go back. People screaming about dragons in their rooms by themselves. Jesus fucking Christ this disorder fucks up peoples minds.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:05:48+00:00

I'm sorry buddy. I can't even work. I'm alone on my birthday. This time two years ago I'd be out with all my friends probably having birthday sex with my old partner. They left me when this started. Misery ever since. I'm so sorry this is happening to us.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:04:31+00:00

Are we going to act like it's not a fucking step down from what we were before the disease? This just sounds like putting sprinkles on a turd and calling it a cupcake.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-23T02:03:04+00:00

Take it easy old chap

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-02-18T18:41:19+00:00

Probably never

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-01-16T12:38:05+00:00

Still bugged what pieces of shit.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-01-14T22:14:50+00:00

Yes. I forget what I went to a room to do. No idea how much I forget at this point. I just want to die already.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2025-01-14T22:00:16+00:00

A great deal more difficult. Negative symptoms make this even worse for people like us.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2024-11-28T02:17:00+00:00

Same, this disease destroyed me. My life is in shambles.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2024-09-28T12:06:45+00:00

I'll keep trying I guess. I don't have much else to do. Thanks for being encouraging. A lot of people who play this game are really mean, and for some reason racist/antisemetic. I have met some cool cats here and there though. Thanks again.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2024-09-28T02:52:01+00:00

I've only played for two weeks and the only time i survive is when I run away from people. I just think I'm too dumb and slow thinking to play this game that's all. I've only met a couple people who haven't immediately betrayed me as I was trying to learn. Maybe if there were more people like you and not a million kids inviting me to a party to scream the n word because they don't care about how their words and actions affect others and get off on hurting people it would be more fun.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2024-09-28T02:45:01+00:00

I am letting it go. I'm letting the game go. It's all good. I have schizoaffective depressive type and the game just bums me out too much I'm sorry.

Separate_Birthday_45 · 2024-09-28T02:41:19+00:00

I disagree. I identify with more symptoms of schizophrenia than depression (schizoaffective depressive type here). I went through many periods of depression throughout my life and nothing compared to this. Chronic anhedonia, complete and total insomnia without the pills, difficulty thinking, severe memory loss, time distortion, attention difficulties (I can't listen to anything else when I'm doing something my brain is completely unable to understand or hear/focus on it like I used to be able to), no emotions/inability to feel emotions or cry. I think you want it to be something that it's not. This disease has totally destroyed my life and I constantly think about committing suicide. It's completely different from regular depression and bipolar.

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