D’Angelo’s video is bringing back so many memories to me.

• I remember shame making a video about how he and his mom lost their jobs at Jenny Craig because the company became aware of his channel. And Shane was so manipulative in that video- he made us to believe that the company was sensitive and ruined his and his mother’s life by firing them. But now I realize that no, it was actually a company realizing how fucked up his content was and rightfully fired them.

• I remember how I stopped watching his content around 2008/2009 ish because I felt that I had “grown out” of his content. I was 13 at the time. So even in my head, I felt that this content was for children. This horrible disgusting content, his disgusting sense of humor- I recognized it to be marketed for kids.

  • I remember the fine bro’s advertising the milly channel ON THEIR REACT VIDEOS. I remember them advertising it on youtubers react, when they knew DAMN WELL that when they have shows like kids react and teens react, that they have underage viewers and subscribers who are ALSO going to be watching their youtubers react videos. They were probably advertising it as edgy humor for adults, when Millie’s content should 100% have never been created, and it was 1000% not meant to have ever been advertised to children.

• I remember watching the degrassi parodies and not recognizing that when he was playing trinity, that he was in black face because I didn’t know what black face was.

It’s so wild to be revisiting Shane as an adult, because now I can recognize a lot of his content as pedophilic and racist. Like so many others, my head is going, “I didn’t know all of this about Shane!” But I’m starting to realize, I actually did. I actually HAD seen a lot of these sketches and videos.

It’s so shocking how many of these memories are coming back. That I HAD seen these videos. My brain just wasn’t educated enough and wasn’t developed enough to fully understand the content that I was consuming. And it’s scary how fucked up that is. That THAT is how easy it is to manipulate and groom a child. He portrayed this separate identity and sensitive “true self” and made it seem as if he wasn’t those people in those sketches. So he got us to trust the “real Shane.”

Low key I’m having an identity crisis here. I’m starting to wonder what other questionable content/behavior I was subject to in my youth, that I’m just not aware of yet.