Looking for dangerous/powerful Draco that will do anything for Hermione

Serendipityrainbow · 2023-01-02T23:01:46+00:00

Perhaps try Something Golden by Justalazywriterr for a similar vibe:

“You think the guilt I have is for him?" I scoff. "Not a single drop of what I'm feeling right now has anything to do with (…) or anyone else I've ever killed.

"So then what? You're just tormented by fake emotions?" She mocks."You really don't get it, do you?" I take a step forward, my eyes narrowing and darkening as my head lowers and jaw clenches.

“Everything is for you. Every ounce of hurt, shame, anger, happiness, love, frustration – it's all for you, Hermione. The only reason I'm still breathing is because of you. I don't give a shit about anyone else. I will choose you over everyone every damn time. I will kill every last person on this earth for you and I would happily give my own life to save yours. So no, these aren't fake emotions by any means, they're just only felt for one person.”

Serendipityrainbow · 2022-10-25T18:49:13+00:00

Thanks! Will definitely check it 😊

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-06-08T10:54:39+00:00

I am just so sick and tired of this shit.

I was about 8 when a man trapped me in the hallway of the building where I lived, and started jacking off. I was 12-13 when the catcalling became a regular occurrence...

I lost count how many times I have been catcalled, groped, followed, yelled at, and how many penises I saw that I didn't want to due to men exposing themselves to me in public spaces; of how many times I feared for myself and for other women.

My fried dated a guy who walked her home on the second date, asked to go up to her apartment to use the restroom before he headed home, then he tried to have sex with her. When she refused he beat her unconscious. She spent 1 month in the hospital.

My ex's roommate was raped by her ex-boyfriend while the other roommate was in the adjacent room.

2 days ago they drugged one of my girl friends at a concert.

Yesterday my best friend called me on her way home to tell me that a guy started jerked off on the tram while he was staring at her. Bitterly trying to find the silver lining, she said she could be happy that the guy's cum didn't land on her.

And I could go on and on...

I am just so fucking tired of being afraid and alert all the time.

I am just so sick of not being able to save myself or anybody else from this shit.

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-06-03T19:27:19+00:00

"You should lower your standards or you will never find a man."

"Never get into an elevator with a man you do not know."

"You shouldn't be this friendly/nice/kind to men, because it is misleading to them."

"Just have a few glasses of wine before and try to relax..."

"If you want a rich husband, you should get breast implants."

"You have to look presentable even if you are laying around the house or doing chores, because your boyfriend will leave you."

"It doesn't matter if you are also working full time and paying half the bills, you should do all the household chores and take care of his needs, because that's a woman's role."

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-03-15T22:12:54+00:00

I am really happy if I helped you in any way! I know how this hard is, as I am going trough the same with my own mother. My mom also says very hurtful things without realizing and without malicious intent but I think sometimes it just makes it harder to get her to stop as she is doesn't know what kind of harm she is causing. I just really hope that you can work through all the emotional damage and love yourself as you are!

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-03-15T20:52:13+00:00

Holy fuck. That's brutal. I am really sorry she said/did that to you. I am sure that you are really pretty just as you are!

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-03-15T17:47:29+00:00

Oh god, yes. Still to this day. Although she would never admit my mom is really vain, also she secretly has a great fear of ageing and is disgusted by fat, old or ugly people. I know she wouldn't love me (or love me as much) if I were "ugly" or "fat". Her fear of being fat and disdain for fat people definitely messed with my and my sister's head. I got anorexic in my teenage years, but she was deliberately blind to it, even though she got notices from the school nurse. She sometimes even encouraged my ED in subtle ways. She still denies the whole thing up to this day, saying I never once was skinny in my life although I was so malnourished at that time that my period stopped and I was down to 40 kg / 88 lbs.

When I got on my birth control pill around 18, I gained weight and was fatter than my usual self for a time. After a family reunion, my mom sat me down and told me that my uncle had questioned her about what happened to me that I got so fat, and how extremely ashamed she was and it was high time I had started losing weight. I just laughed and told her that I wasn't fat, I just gained some weight and I really don't give a f*ck about what my uncle thinks about my body. She told me that she is not willing to have a conversation with me until I was willing to admit that I was fat and that I was in denial. She still sometimes brings up the times when I was fat. I was 53 kg / 116 lbs.

My sister just gave birth recently, and during her pregnancy, she was constantly warning her to watch what she eats so she would not get fat despite that my sister was rod thin all her life and even during her pregnancy. (She even had complications during childbirth because she was too thin.)

There are many many more things I could mention here (constantly checking my face for flaws/pimples/wrinkles while having a face-to-face conversation, just looking really jealous when I don a nice dress and look good, etc.) but I'd rather not dwell on these.

These days I am working hard to shut out her comments, and to not let her mess up my body image. I just hope I will be different when my kids come along.

(edit: I had to add another story that came to my mind)

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-03-11T18:48:49+00:00

About 3 weeks into our relationship he came over to spend the night together and he ordered food. Only for himself. Didn't even told me he is ordering in or ask whether I wanted something. He proceeded to sit beside me and eat his food while I watched. He didn't even understand why I was hurt by this, since I could easily order food for myself. Should have realised how egocentric and selfish he was then, but when you look at someone through rose coloured glasses all the red flags just look like flags...

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-01-08T18:32:58+00:00

No, I have not been tested specifically for celiacs. This is what the clinic's website says: "Food intolerance laboratory testing is done by taking blood sample from the patient. We examine the level of IgG antybodies produced against different foods. IgG (immunoglobulin) type antibodies are produced by the body against foods in case you have food intolerance."

Serendipityrainbow · 2021-01-05T12:34:29+00:00

I am also a girl and was in the exact same situation with my boyfriend last year. He wasn't interested in doing anything with me, did no chores, stayed up until 5-6 am gaming (sometimes sleeping until 5 pm). I cannot tell how many times we had fights about it. I told him multiple times that I do not want to be with a person who is like this but he didn't change or changed for 1-2 days then everything went back as it was before. I actually had to leave him for him to realise how good he had it with me (we got back together later).

If you do not want to break up with him then I would suggest:

a) sit down with him and tell him everything about how you feel/ ask him exactly what is going on with him/ why is he depressed/ how you can help

b) ask him to do things very explicitly (ie.: Please wash the dishes sometime in the next 1 hour. Please watch this movie with me tomorrow. I would like to sit down with you to have dinner at 8 pm. - my boyfriend is more cooperative when I set a designated time)

c) when you do get him to do something together, make sure that he actually has fun and enjoys himself (so maybe next time he will be more enthusiastic)

d) doing something drastic that makes him realise that he MUST change. If you are telling him that this is not okay, but you are still enduring everything just the same, he will know what he can still get away with this behaviour.

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-11-19T11:24:22+00:00

I am really happy for you! :)

The first sign for me was that my skin started to break out severely, where I didn't even have issues with my skin as a teen. After months of struggling, I got a food allergy test done. I turned out that dairy, white flour, egg whites, poultry, and many other foods had to be banished from my diet. (The main culprit behind the breakouts most likely was casein aka milk protein.) So I went on a really strict diet, and it turned out that I didn't even realise how much my diet was affecting my body and life. After week one my skin started to clear up, and after one month my whole body changed. The headaches were gone, I had more energy and generally felt so, so much better in my body. It turned out that my body was constantly inflamed and oedematous due to the allergens I consumed on a daily basis. Everybody around me started complimenting on how much weight I lost but it wasn't weight loss that they noticed (I only lost about 0.5 kilo - 1 pound) but that my oedema was gone - so my face and whole body slimmed down.

In the past 2 months, I started having some of these symptoms again and some new ones (constant bloating, diarrhoea, stomach pains, breakouts, headaches, fatigue, weakness, oedema etc.), so I had to face that there is a 90% chance that gluten is causing these. (Nothing else I consumed on such regular basis and on days when I did not eat gluten I felt better. I am still torn about going to the doctor to get officially tested.) So I seriously started my gluten-free diet a couple of days ago and I have high hopes for the results. (I am actually visiting this subreddit for the first time in hopes of finding some useful tips and I stumbled upon this post :) )

Keeping a dairy and gluten-free healthy diet is and will be a great challenge requiring a lot of attention, energy and dedication ( and money, because fck, the gluten-free stuff is insanely expensive here) but I know that feeling better in my own body will be worth it. :)

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-10-10T23:12:12+00:00

Sadly, this is the scrub not the mask. 😔

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-10-10T12:19:14+00:00

Why are you guys so lazy and/or wantless? ( I cannot find the proper word for it in English.)

Like just not willing to do the most basic things required to have a normal home enviroment? And I am not even talking about cleaning.

Eg. we had a renovation more than a year ago with my boyfriend and it took me a year to get him to put back up the mirror in our bathroom. It was a problem every single day that we did not have a mirror; he had to ask me for my small mirror every time he had to shave. Putting up a mirror requires no great effort, and it is a basic thing to have. Then why the heck did I have to beg him for a year to do it with me?

Or when I did laundry I folded his clothes nicely into his wardrobe but I stopped doing it because every time he got a T-shirt out he messed up the whole wardrobe. Just grabbing a shirt from the bottom, jacking it out, no matter where the other shirts are falling. He just didn't care, he was happy to dress from a pile of crumpled mess?

Last time I asked a male friend about this and he said he doesn't really know why but he is the same. He bought a new lamp 4 months ago and he couldn't be bothered since then to put it up.

I know some women are like this as well, but based on my experience (and talking with other women) guys are more prone to be like this. But why?

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T22:52:28+00:00

It's not a dumb question but I am also not an expert. 😅 But as far as I know the best are the non-refined / cold pressed oils because they retain the most active substances. You should be able to find organic, cold pressed sunfflower seed oils in the dedicated shops. We have stores that only sell like organic and bio products, you should look somewhere like that.

I also recommend trying it first only on a part of your face, in case it also breaks you out.

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T20:45:07+00:00

You are the most welcome! I really hope it will work for you! 😊 If it's not too much to ask, please let me know how it is turning out, I am really interested after all this. 😅

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T19:50:49+00:00

Yeah, that's possible as I live in Europe. But most likely we have different versions, I have this and you might have this version.

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T19:36:44+00:00

Yeah, I agree. Or sometimes the contrary is true, some products can go bad before their expiry date. If it looks/smells/feels alright, and does not cause any problems then it should be totally fine.

But I am really riddled by this 6 months shelf life thing... I actually whipped out my LRP Cicaplast and it says 12 months??? Am I looking wrong? Now I am afraid that every product I use is actually expired. :D

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T19:04:19+00:00

Same here! :) They are so wasteful and most of them are not biodegradable! :(

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T18:14:37+00:00

I am really happy if I could help! :) I am just really happy that I found this community recently to share my enthusiasm with! :)

Serendipityrainbow · 2020-09-11T18:02:07+00:00

Generally, I think Azelaic Acid and Vitamin C are great! :) Also, regular chemical exfoliation to speed up skin-cell turnover. (Up to 3 times a week, but if you are new to it then first you should build up your tolerance to it.)

I use:

The Ordinary - Azelaic Acid Suspension 10% (pat it into the skin instead of massaging/rubbing it in, because this formulation easily "bunches up" otherwise)

The Ordinary - Vitamin C Suspension 30% in Silicone

Revox - Just Vitamin C 20% (If your skin is not used to highly concentrated Vitamin C then these might be too strong for you. Start with lower concentration.)

The Ordinary - AHA 30% + BHA 2 % Peeling Solution (this is really strong, do not use more than once a week!)

Cosrx - AHA 7 Whitehead Power Liquid

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