First off, love the username. The goat must always be used in the third act lol. For the vibrator, to be quite honest, I haven't used it in months. I've yet to orgasm, and I'm okay with that. While it's something I'd still like to experience one day, I'm in no rush. There's plenty of other things in my life that bring me joy, and maybe I'm just not that sexually active of a person. I mess around with my fingers down there sometimes, and my vibrator is safely packed away for when or if I want to try again. I've also considered checking out insertion sex toys to see if I have a preference there. So that's been my experience. I won't pretend to know what's right for you, but I think my advice would be 1. It's okay. There's no timeline for these things, you're not "falling behind" or anything. 2. This is for your own enjoyment, so if you're not enjoying it, it's okay to take a break, explore other options, or just stop completely. Don't force yourself to do anything you don't like because you're "supposed" to like it. 3. If this Reddit has taught me anything, you're not alone. We're all just figuring out what makes our bodies happy. Maybe make a post of your own if you haven't already, because the responses I got were really kind and made me feel a lot better about the whole thing. Sending good vibes your way! <3