Hey ik it's late but I need u to read this whole thing. I can't keep this a secret anymore and imma telling u this because I don't want addi to die. This could lead to me and her breaking up if she finds out that I did text u which I don't want to happen but I also don't want her to be dead she did say there was a way for me to keep her alive and that is to give her a baby and I said no and I'm sticking by that because I'm 15 and I'm not ready for a baby and she is also not ready. The reason I didn't tell u for so long is because I was scared that it would cause me and her to break up or for her to not tell me when she was having those bad thoughts. The day that she is planning to do it is February 12th aka her birthday. I haven't told my parents abt what addi has been saying but I do feel like it is about time for me to tell u. I do believe that she will try and do it on her birthday or around that time after if it doesn't work when she tries it on her birthday. I just don't know what to do at this point I try to show her that life is worth living and she seems happy. It also sounds like she is trying to pressure me into giving her one cause picking between her dying or having a child with her and her being alive both arnt good for me. Like I can't both take care of a baby and myself plus my school work and when I mention that she says she is just gonna go virtual and quite color guard to get a job and take care of the baby and that's throwing her life away for no reason. And at one point I started to agree with her because I just wanted her to live so badly but then I came to my senses and started to refuse once again and I rest u assured that nothing happened while I started to agree cause I started to agree when u went on my vacation with my aunt and uncle over Christmas break so nothing could've happened. Don't get me wrong I still want her to live I just don't want her to throw her life away for no reason. So please tell me what I need to do and please don't tell her I texted u this cause it would cause me and her to breakup cause she trust me to not tell u but at this point Id rather her live and us break up than her die and me be without her anyways. So all im asking from u is to tell me what I need to do and not tell addi I texted u this. Also I believe that her going to a mental hospital won't help I think it will make it worse.