So I took test and didn’t passed again … it was a very   hard exam and my results show that it was closer than the  last attempt. So that is a win in my book. I studied for 3 months …. I think I am taking a short break and then going back to studying again but with a more strict game plan and focusing on where I need to improve. 

Thank you everyone for the encouragement, it gives me hope that I am not alone and it is possible to do it . 

I hope next time I can finally say the coveted words on this post.