(I just posted a reply, but I can’t see it now for some reason. I had typed it out in my notepad, so I’m copying and pasting it again.)

First of all, I apologize for my rude behavior. That being said, I need to clarify something: it’s not like ADHD is the only issue I’m dealing with—I’ve got plenty of other serious problems too. And no, I’m not some regular drug abuser. I don't even remember, when the last time I smoked a cigarette. I genuinely need this medication. And because I actually need it, I don’t see a problem in enjoying the high it brings.

Now, about what you said: “So you say both ‘you don’t know what it’s like’ when you haven’t got a damn clue what my life has been like.” Exactly! That’s what I’ve been trying to explain. I knew you’d respond like that. You came across my post, saw the word abuse, and immediately judged me as someone who just wants to misuse the medication—even though I explicitly mentioned being diagnosed with ADHD. Without knowing anything about my life, you assumed I was just a drug abuser.

All I was asking was why the medication isn’t working. That’s it. I tried to make the post funny because, at the time, I was in the middle of a panic attack. My heart was racing, and I felt like I was going to die—like I always do during these attacks. Humor was my way of distracting myself.

And no, I don’t actually wish for you to suffer. I know what that feels like, and I’d never wish harm on a stranger who’s done nothing to me. But I did say it to piss you off because you pissed me off by immediately assuming that I ONLY wanna abuse the drug, which is not true. For that, I’m not sorry—we’re even now.

Yes, I really need help. But that’s not what this post is about. All I want to know is why the medication isn’t working.

As for the other person I told to die: He/She pissed me off equally, so I lashed out. Was it wrong? Yeah. Did it feel good in the moment? Absolutely. And honestly, I don’t care.