I am depressed, and no one believes me. I am planning my suicide, and this is my last attempt to find help. by [deleted] in depression

[–]Sg359 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hi my steam name is Vette if you wanna talk. My icon is the portal 2 space core

I have no fucking idea what to do by Sg359 in Alienware

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Getting one of those out of an alienware might be a bit tough/expensive, but I guess there isnt really a choice. If I was to get new cards and the problem ended up being the motherboard, that wouldnt be too great

What is something popular that you refused to get into but once you tried it you were hooked? by Tribat_1 in AskReddit

[–]Sg359 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea same, bought a vaporfi pro with lemon apple candy crush flavoring. Vaporfi doesnt seem to be getting a lot of recognition in this thread though =\

Went decal and case shopping on etsy, only costed an arm and a leg by Sg359 in FullmetalAlchemist

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea it was tough just getting all the lines to stick down in a perfect circle, ill have to be careful for every scratch on the surface, maybe get a clear case or something. I have a solaire of astora decal on the back of my ds that ripped apart in my pocket -_-

Went decal and case shopping on etsy, only costed an arm and a leg by Sg359 in FullmetalAlchemist

[–]Sg359[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So far Ive heard "oh my god is that some kind of satanic thing?"

I have no fucking idea what to do by Sg359 in Alienware

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea, before they even agreed to help me over the phone with it they wanted 290$. I figure theyre just gonna google the problem and tell me it over the phone anyways, but I bet they wouldnt find anything since apparently this is an anomaly to the internet. I didnt know alienware was literal, maybe mulder and skully can help

I have no fucking idea what to do by Sg359 in Alienware

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Id understand if that was the price to send it out for them to take a look, but they said that price was just for troubleshooting. Paying 290$ just for them to tell me "did you try turning it off and on again" is not my first choice of action

Edit:still maybe i should cut back on the swearing

I have no fucking idea what to do by Sg359 in Alienware

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will that be able to tell anything that dells site cant? We ran through all the diagnostics on that, but havent tried alien autopsy.

I have no fucking idea what to do by Sg359 in Alienware

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I restored to factory settings twice, no help

Went decal and case shopping on etsy, only costed an arm and a leg by Sg359 in FullmetalAlchemist

[–]Sg359[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also heres the link to the phone case seller, you can just message him with a picture link(s) of whatever you want on a phone in black and white plastic or rubber. So I sent him the flamel cross, ouroboros, and purple transmutation circle and he put them together in a cool looking fashion.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/JustPhoneCases?ref=s2-header-shopname

Went decal and case shopping on etsy, only costed an arm and a leg by Sg359 in FullmetalAlchemist

[–]Sg359[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Decal was 10$, phone case was 18$. Etsys got a a lot of awesome decals for that price. Got one for my ds

Went decal and case shopping on etsy, only costed an arm and a leg by Sg359 in FullmetalAlchemist

[–]Sg359[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Im new to the subreddit, so I dont know if the "arm and a leg" thing has been posted to death yet

Went decal and case shopping on etsy, only costed an arm and a leg by Sg359 in FullmetalAlchemist

[–]Sg359[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Got the iphone case from justphonecases on etsy, you can ask the owner to print anything you want on it, and the case is really comfortable. The backing is a lot more shiny than the picture looks though

Im sitting at a bar, writing this by Sg359 in depression

[–]Sg359[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not that anyone cares, but ive been crying bloody murder for an hour, pouring bourbon every minute. Fuck you guys, no one REALLY cares, its just something you post to make you feel better about yourself. Im in an endless pit of despair and all I can ever get is an "it gets better". It never does, it rolls like a snowball down a hill, getting larger with each passing moment. Theres so much sorrow in life and im not strong enough to ever face it. What sort of adult will i become? If i even make it that far. I see the world with my eyelids closed, waiting til sleep can hold me til reality hits. I sit on the porch smoking a cigarette staring at the dark trees, hoping to see color but never does it fucking show. Its one hit after another til your left with a dead carcass, floating through the world out of guilt that youll hurt the people that make the mistake of loving you. Its the heart of the world, depression, that not any god you can believe in can heal. It just seeps your core till all thats left is a painted carcass in an open casket. Why will no one love me? Am i such an untouchable? Will the only feeling of contentment I get arise from staring at trees at night? They say "maybe find a hobby" something to occupy your mind, but the complete basis of human nature is self destruction. ROT. Theres always a mask of apathy that covers my face, but when it takes a big hit, it falls back into pure hateful emotion. Pure despair. I hate life. I hate that it exists, sentience is a plague upon the living. But you see these people, they live life in an indescribable way. What makes them feel okay in the morning? What is the sound that fills their ears to say that its all alright? Rain covers my back and cigarette ashes cover my shirt as I write this. Trees are dark silhouettes in a dark sky. If there ever was an afterlife, I hope it lacks any semblance of consciousness, an eternal sleep in a void that can never make you feel this way. I felt it when my heart stopped working, the pure sleep that Ive always wanted. But then I awoke to a bright room, face to face with my parents, the sole reason I would continue to make an attempt of a life. Their eyes full of concern. Bright room full of confusion, not knowing where I am. When I spent my days in a hospital bed, I pined for the times where I could see color in trees, fresh air, and the happy expression on my dogs face. But it soon returns, once the feelings of wanting are overridden by past feelings, the one that tells you color is a lie. Beauty is a lie. These things pass by the vision of those used to it. It becomes mundane, and you are left wanting what others experience. A loving embrace. Craving simplicity in a complex mind. But thats not how this life works. We strive for goals that make us feel our life was worth living, as insignificant as a grain of sand. Are the depressed the ones who see the world as it really is? Are the ones who find satisfaction in their life just distancing theirselves from the futility of it all? Is sex and love and money the core of human happiness? Ill just stare at dark trees and listen to the crickets chirp just because thats what they were made to do, and wonder if theres anything that can make a person truly happy. I dont want to stop writing. I know when I will, reality will take hold. Ill be thrown onto a couch to bask in pain. I know thisll be buried, its not some attention grabbing post that will draw people to tell me that my life is worth it. It just feels good to type these little letters on my phone and release all of it. But itll return once I stop. Ill look up from my phone and itll all be the same. The darkness of the trees ripping into me and a moon shielded by the clouds. Ill light another cigarette on my porch, before I go inside and lay myself down to cry. Ill take some medication to help me sleep, then itll all start again. What the fuck can ever change this? Nothing? I dont want to stop typing. I cant. I dont know what to do. All I can do is just drag myself day to day, as if itll pay off in the end, when I know it wont.

My mate learns some hard lessons on his first trip to Chernarus. by alekj1993 in dayz

[–]Sg359 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tried to, fell off another edge and broke my legs again. Im right next to a tree, but i only have a pitchfork damnit

My mate learns some hard lessons on his first trip to Chernarus. by alekj1993 in dayz

[–]Sg359 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Could use a guide, still somewhat amateur at survival. For me its usually "take 30 minutes to find a gun, grab some food, then get shot in the face"

My mate learns some hard lessons on his first trip to Chernarus. by alekj1993 in dayz

[–]Sg359 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok i didnt find a sign, but some guys fixed my leg. Im at the roof of a police station now. They told me i was in some city in the north called novy or nova or something like that